Equation 344 : Open Wound

An open wounds,
Those would that were made from those sins,
Those sins that I’ve done,
Those mistakes that I’ve made,
All because from my greed and my own need,
Knowing that I’m not perfect,
Not better than who you are,
Not better than those person that you’ve become attached with,
Before those promises were made,
To always stays close to each other,
But as the time had passed,
I felt there are spaces that gets in between us,
With friendships that somehow meant more to you,
With work that I have to understand what I have to go through with you,
But why am I feeling like this right now?
Why those these tears fell down because it meant nothing anymore,
Perhaps nothing anymore in the relationship we had,
Perhaps destiny was written for us to met,
But maybe it could never meant for us to be with each other,
You’ve found somebody better along the way,
I’ve made a promise to myself that I’d never fall in love anymore,
But why did I fell in love with you,
Why at the end I felt my heart is torn to pieces because of you?
Why am I feeling this way....
Why am I feeling betrayed along the way...

Equation 348 : Scars.

Sometimes,
How you'd wish that the love you feel,

You feel in your heart,

It would last forever,
It would last a life time,
But how can it would ever mean,
Mean a single thing,

Apart from only scars,

Scars that would be left still bleeding,
When all you wish for you're the first one,
The first one at least to be,
To be in another person's heart,
How can you ever fight,
Fight along the way when you know,
Know that the consequences to ever,
Ever fall in love again,
It would eventually make you smile,
Or even tear your heart apart once again,
Leaving you with those freshly torn bruises,
You hold yourself to stand strong,
Be strong along the way,
But somehow you fall down along the way,
Falls down and not sure if you're still breathing,
Only left with smile,
Laughter to erase the pain,
The suffer that was on the bare surface of life,
Letting only a heart knowing,
Even if a smile still curve on this lips that are parted apart,
Let alone the heart keep on tearing apart,

Let alone those those scars keep on bleeding,
Just for the sake of fear to ever falling in love,
It takes over a life,
Letting it die and drown,
Hoping for it to be,
For one last time.

© Scarlet Storm 2019

A story of u and I.

Au.

Dark, in the darkest night where the world is so cold,. Nothing else could be felt apart from the cold breeze of an autumn night. I stood there at the verandah of my house, I look at the night sky where the moon seems to be left alone when those stars that usually accompany him wasn't there that night.

I felt like I was left alone, how I long for your touch holding me so close in your arms as I could feel the warmth of your skin touching mine. I turned around and I look for the only woman that I love but it seems like I couldn't find her there, I couldn't find her anywhere. I sighs as I felt like my life is lost at that i could feel the cold wind touches my skin from the verandah that is still wide open that night.

I turned back around as I look at the sky that once before was empty but I could see the stars that wasn't there before was there once again around the moon that is still shining that night.

With a broken heart, I felt like I want to walk away from my life but before I could even think again, I felt your arms wrapped around my waist. You hold on my shoulder, as you stood up on both of your toes as you gently touches my bare back with your soft lips.

I turned around and I look at you your smile brightens my night as the smile that wasn't there on my face slowly curves once again. You wrapped your arms close to me as I could felt your warm skin touching against mine once more. I wrapped my arms around yours and I know you're the precious dime that I had digged the deepest core to find once before and I know I don't ever want too loose you ever in my life.

©Scarlet Storm 2019