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24th April 2012
Dear diary,
It seems like today was just like the pass days I’ve lived in. It surely nothing that excite me at all. Life was still the same old, same old.
My parents? As usual, I never even see their face for quite. The last thing I remembered them telling me was, “You take care of yourself, Yuki. We’re going to England since your dad has been post there for his new position. We left you some money, and please do call us if there’s any problem.”
Mom’s sweet words, but I tried calling her, but as usual,
unreachable.
I’ve been living on my own ever since then, but she’s always there at my house anyway.
Oh! How can I even live without her?
Manami Hana.
She has been my best friend since I was in middle school…
We share almost everything in life.
She’s always there by my side…
But…
Ever since I had that dream about that mysterious thing, I tried so bad to get the image off my head, but why isn’t it possible? Why would it be something that I should even be bothered about? Why should I even care about that? Dreams are just dreams. None of it would be real anyway.
… but why does it feel, real?
When he held me close in his arms, I felt his coldness, his breath, lust, tempting passion he had for me, I know he want me,
somehow he felt my fright when he wanted to owned me.
What does he really need from me?
Why does my heart ache when I think of him? Do I want him too as much as he wants me?|
How can I not think about him anyway? I couldn’t even erase him from my head, let alone my life….
Manami kept on telling me to prevent, impede myself from thinking about that mysterious man, but how can I even forget his
Just get back in the reality world, Yuki.
You won’t see him again, he won’t be there with you forever, never the less, see him in sight even if it’s only for a little while.
Miyuki Takeda put the pen down, she took a deep breath, leaning closer down on the table, she blinked her eyes for a few times.
What am I thinking?
she thought, as the wind outside gently touch her tender skins, she covered her face, shielding herself from the sun that was rising bright in the real world right now.
*
It was around 12.46 in the afternoon, where the outside world was busy like a normal regular days, but she was still in a dream,
Miyuki smiled on her own, looking at how the Sakura blossom gracefully though it was almost the end of Spring, the green was still lighting up the world, everything still seemed to be at its own destiny, how everything was supposed to be,
“Beautiful world,” she whispered, cherishing everything that was there around her, how she wishes she could be here forever,
then she felt someone touched her shoulder in a tick of time,
Without any notification, she felt someone touching her cheek for a few times again,
“Yuki,” she heard someone calling for her, though she still didn’t see anybody.
“Oi,” she heard someone called her over and over again, who was it disturbing her beautiful melody, as she slowly opens her eyes, she saw someone right in front of her face, she fell frozen for a few second, feeling shock, she opens her eyes wide, “Jun!” she said his name when he just smiled to her, “Yo,” he greeted her, lifting one side of his hands up, and rest it on her shoulder,
“You know that you can’t sleep in class right?” he asked her, when she rubbed her eyes, looking at him, but still feeling a little dozy, she raised her eyebrow, clueless with what was going on, “Hello,” she replied him, when he grinned to her, “You had a good nap didn’t you? You know that if Mr. Takeshi walked in the class and see you sleeping like a small girl, he might bite you?” he asked her,
Bite…
she suddenly remembers about her eerie dream, but she pushed his shoulder, and shrugged a little,
“I know you’d wake me up,” she told him, when he winked his eyes, “And give me 10 reason why I should even do that?” he asked her, she gave him a little smile, “I can only give you one,” she told him, when he sat next to her table.
“What?” he asked her, looking as arrogant as he can be, she pinched his nose, “I know you love me and I know you’d save me,” she winked her eyes, leaning close and was about to give him a kiss, he seemed to be overly excited for what was going to happen in between those two, but he lifted his hands up, “Wait,” he said, looking away, unsatisfied in a sudden.
She tries to push his hand away, but didn’t manage to, she gave him a short glance, “Why?” she asked, he shakes his head, frowning a little, he looked to the side, “I know you don’t love me,” he said, when she leaned closer to him, “Oh my,” she replied, as if she was shocked what he just told her, she was so eager to know what was playing on his head at that second,
“What are you saying, MatsuJun,” she asked him, when she frowned, “I know you don’t love me,” putting his hand down, she held it close in hers, looking depressingly miserable, he looked to the other side, trying not to get a glimpse of her eyes, she felt a little odd,
“Are you okay, baby?” she asked him, but he still didn’t response to what she was doing to him, “I know that you like someone else,” he told her, sticking his tongue out a little, Miyuki’s eyes opened a little wide, “What are you saying?” she asked him, but he didn’t even reply her even one bit, she looked at him, with her mouth opened, “JUN!” she called for him, but he just covers his face with both of his hands, “I’m not telling you,” he said, but she shakes his arms.
Before he could even speak, someone patted behind Miyuki’s shoulder, as she looked to the side.
Miyuki smiled looking at her, “Hey, girl!” she greeted her,
“Hey dear,” she kissed her cheek,
“What’s going on you two?”
Jun just look to the side, “Not telling,” he shakes her head, Manami sat next to him, she took out her History notes,
“Since when you’re not telling me anything?” Manami looked at him,
“Since when I told you everything?” he said, didn’t blink his eyes,
“I thought you always tell us everything,” Miyuki bite her finger nail,
They looked at each other for sometimes… wondering what was playing in each other’s mind, playing puzzle by looking into each other’s eyes, Jun raised his eyebrows up,
“This is…”
****
“… not true!” Manami said, when she laughed at the two of them, Jun wrote something down on a piece of paper in front of him, “but, people do said that if human dream too high, others might think that they have a bright future ahead,” he looked at those two girls, when Miyuki smirked a little, as usual, Manami act like she don’t really bother, but,
“I do have high dreams myself,” she budged in, irritated, but that’s what Jun Matsuda always be, and will forever be like.
He moves his point finger, declaring it’s a no in front of her face, “No, no, no,” he said, Manami looked at Miyuki, “Should I?” she asked her, who was reading the “Passionate Murderer,” novel, she just smiled, “Up to you,” she told her, with a little smile, she flipped to the other page, Manami frowned a little looking at him who still haven’t stop talking,
“Even if you dream too high, baby,” he continue his talk, running his fingers through his dark brown hair, Manami crossed her arms on her chest, she gave him a glare, as he took a deep breath, turning his glance towards her, he touched his chin, taking a few second to think,
“What are you? Einstein wanna be?” she asked him, when he lifted his hands up in front of her face, avoiding her to get in the way while he was trying to say something, he looked at her.
“If they dream too high, Miss Hana Manami,” he shakes his head in a disappointment, he sighed, as their eyes met each other,
“What?” she look fiercely, without any smile, he gave her a mocking grin,
“They might fall down” he said, looking at her sharply, she bit her lips,
“Hard,” he finishes his sentence, when Minami opened her mouth, she feels like she wanted to strangle him, but if only she can, she lifted her hands up, when Miyuki looked at two of them, she know she got to break the ice.
Even though they’ve been friends for quite sometimes, but these two, they can never be too close to each other sometimes, she put her novel to the side, took a deep breath, giving away a nicely smile,
“And I know you got a high dream to date Selena Gomez,” Miyuki budged in, Jun turned his gaze towards her, with her shoulder length brown hair falls down behind her back, how could he even resist her beautiful smile, he took a deep breath, looking away to the side,
What are you thinking Jun… Don’t be ridiculous. Stop thinking about this!!
he told himself, when he looked at her once again, “Everyone have a dream, Yuki,” he told her, patting her cheek gently, he felt a sudden nerve wrecking in between that touch, he froze for a few second,
I don’t like her. No way. I never like her…
he closed his eyes for sometimes, when Miyuki waved her hand in front of his face,
“Hello? Earth to Jun. Earth to Jun,” she said, when Manami had a big laugh, “O,oh,” she teased, sticking a little of her tongue’s out, “I think he likes you,” she winked, when Jun gotten out from his fantasy,
“No, I don’t” he said, straitening lines that seemed to be a little crumpled, he looked at the two of them, trying to make things clear, he took a deep breath,
“She likes that other guy,” he told them, Miyuki just looked at him, “What are you saying?” Manami asked him, when he rubs his fingers against the tip of his nose,
“You know that guy,” he said again, couln’t figure out who he wanted to say, he looked around, searching for someone to aim, when suddenly,
he opened his eyes, “Sho,” he said, when he saw that man walking inside the classroom behind those ladies, that was the only name he could ever think of saying, Manami and Miyuki looked at each other,
“Who?” both of them asked him all together, when Jun trying to remember what was his last name,
he gritted his teeth together,
What is his name, what is his name… he closed his eyes, thinking so bad, he felt his heart was about to burst out after running so hard,
“So?” Manami asked him,
after sometimes thinking, he opens his eyes wide,
he let out his breath, “Sunohara,” he said, when both of them looked at him strangely, “Who?” they asked him, when he looked at both of them,
“I know she likes Sunohara Sho,” he said. The two of them looked at each other and laughed so hard, they looked at him,
when Miyuki patted his shoulder, “And why would I like him?” she asked when he looked a little clueless,
“Because everyone in this college loves him?” he pointed out, making sure that what he said was right, Miyuki just shakes her head and smile to him, “So, I should like him too?” she asked when Jun tried so hard to think of something that make sense with this situation,
he took a deep breath, and pointed to him who was at his desk behind the three of them, “Just look at him,” he said, taking a deep breath, he looked at the two of them. Feeling sweats soaking through the back of his shirt, he gritted his teeth together, avoiding the image confussion between his own emotion, or what reality was already written.
Jun had a small gulp, when Miyuki turns around and looked at the person they were talking about.
Sunohara Sho, a semi height man with a crystal clear brown eyes, and with a nicely set thick brown hair, it seemed like he was just a perfect man. Wearing a faded black jeans, V neck gray t-shirt, with a blue and white checkered shirt, unbutton, exposing his fair, mellow neck, he seemed not to be an ordinary somebody. Could be he was from a wealthy family? Or maybe he just have a very delicate, ancient look across his face, elegant apparel even though just a regular person, Miyuki looked to the other side, trying to avoid any psychical contact, though they were sitting so far away, she felt her heart pounding endlessly as he ran his fingers through his hair.
What…?
She took a deep breath, exchanging her gaze back to the reality world, she looked at Jun once again, “And so?” she asked him, when Jun covers his face with a book he was holding, he peeks a little,
“I know you got a crush on him,” he winked, but she looked at him bizarrely, Manami touched Jun’s arms, as he turned his gaze towards her, they had a conversation about the History notes they have to memorize since there will be a pop quiz later, Miyuki leaned close on the table, turning her gaze around towards that mysterious man once again, she looked at him without blinking her eyes,
Even if he was further away from her hand, his sight took her away to some other sight of her life. Why does she felt this way? Why does she wishes he would forever be here to stay? Why wouldn’t her life turned to gray?
She had a sigh,
At least he’s real, she told herself, when she looked at her friends, but he turned his gaze towards her,
looking at her body length, how beautiful she was there, smiling with her friends, he took a deep breath,
Miyuki Takeda,
he said to himself, he took a deep breathing, closing his eyes, sensing the fregerence of each other humans around him, he started to feel his emotion shifting from one side to another, though how far she was from his reach, but her delicate scent, dominated his heart, his desire, how he yearned to be, he bit his lips a little,
suddenly a person touched his shoulder, he turned his gaze towards her,
“Your lips are bleeding,” she pointed that out, giving him a tissue, he smiled to her, “Thank you,” he said, taking it, as he wipes it away,
Yuki… he repeated her name again.
****
It was around 4.13 in the evening, inside a very quiet room, the clock on the wall was still sticking as every second time passed by, the dark green curtain was still fallen down even though the outside world was still living it’s life.
The stenches of the wooden oak inside the room, increases the sences of please that a man who was hiding inside the warm blanket, still breathing,
he turns around, still wearing his black shirt, partly unbutton, he pushed the pillow that was covering his face to the side,
“Urgh,” he groaned, how he was wishing that the time won’t ever changed to the next day, let alone another decade, he let out a long breath.
Opening his eyes a little, how the brown eyes sparkled, as he turned to the side, he looked at the sun light that was still shining ouside,
“What the hell is the time now,” he groaned once again, feeling unsatisfied with whatever was disturbing his sleep, he pulled the blanket up, covering his face again, but the birds can’t stop twitching outside, he rubs his lips with his sweating fingers, “Damn you,” he said, pushing the blanket to the side, he opens his eyes, he heard something was calling for him somewhere, without any hesitation, he sat down on his bed,
he looked at his worned out shirt, taking a long sniff, he bit his lips remembering on what has happened last night, he stood up and walked towards the mirror next to his wooden closet, he looked at himself there.
He ran his fingers through his messed up hair, revealing his tempting image, he smiled to himself, “You are the man,” he said, praising himself for what he had done last night, he smell the scent on his shirt once again, “You are the man,” he messed up his hair again.
“Oh, this is heaven,” he said, taking it off, throwing it at the side of his bed, he wiped the red stain on his lips, licking it, tasting the pleasure even though the sensation had passed hours ago.
He took the bottle of liquor at the side of his bed, taking a large sip of it, he sat on the bed once again, taking the tv remote control, as he turned it on,
“Now let see what’s the hot news for today,” he smiled, laying back a little on the bed,
***
At the University, Manami, Jun and Miyuki were inside the cafeteria before it was the time for them to go back home since their last lecturer didn’t make it to the last class,
Jun looked at Manami,
“And you know that I would win for the best actor in this university right?” he said, taking a sip of his fresh lemonade juice, when Manami grinned to him, “And I;m sure that Miyuki would be your perfect partner,” she winked her eyes, but Jun frowned to her,
he sighed a little, “Why do you keep relating me with her?” he asked, Manami looked at Miyuki who was queing up to pay at the cashier, she turned her gaze towards him again, “Isn’t it obvious that you know,” she said, Jun only shakes his head,
“No, I don’t know,” he said, leaning closer to her, “Explain,” he gave her order, but she just laughed at him, “Even a ten years old can see it, you know Jun,” she pointed out, he just shakes his head,
“No way,”
“You’re lying to yourself, Matsuda,”
“No, I’m not,”
she smirked a little,
“Yes you are,”
he continues to shakes his head, denying everything that might be true, Manami pinched his nose,
“It’s okay, if you’re still refusing to confess,” she winked, turning her gaze towards Sunohara Sho, who was enjoying his meal over there, she smiled to Jun a little,
“He seemed to be actracted to her, you know,” she drink her juice, Jun just raised his eyebrow, “I told you,” he frowned a little,
“I do not care,” he said, when Miyuki put her glasses in front of them,
“Don’t care about what?” she asked them, but Manami just laughed, “Nothing, this guy is just being crazy,” she smiled, when suddenly,
“Latest news. Two of Saitama University freshmen has been found dead in a room at the Tokorozawa Park Hotel this evening around two thirty in the evening in a savage murder,” the tv inside the cafeteria announces,
Miyuki looked at the other two, who was also shocked with the news they just heard, Manami looked at her, “Kaoru and Belle was absent today,” she said, feeling just terrified with that they heard, everyone there fell silent with everything they just heard.
Sunohara Sho looked at all of them, he closed his eyes,
Did he…
***
The man inside that room had the biggest laugh, “Oops, I did it again,” he said, switching off the tv, he unbutton his jeans, walking towards the bathroom.
