Wednesday, 24 April 2013

Beast with a true Love : Chapter 4

            He looked directly into her beautiful eyes, with so many questions he wanted to asked but why only one keep on playing in mind? Why can’t he overwhelm his own wits to face the ingenuous fact about what was going on? It was already in the end of September, how the Autumn breeze was still fresh every day passed by, with those leafs floating around the air without any gravity, shouldn’t it be a beautiful memories within two heart together but why isn’t he even close to satisfied with what was going on?
            He grasps his fist,
            “Why, Tami?” he asked her, who was standing there in front of his eyes wearing a beautiful silky sky blue and white Kimono, with the sparks of the beautiful moon light was shimmering against it, the flare brings out her body curve, he holds her hands, when she pulled it away, “Why did you do that, Masaki?” she asked him, wasn’t sure of what was going on, she looked at those dead bodies laying around her in her own living room.
            She looked towards the side, with her own emotion was just frightened to even looked into his eyes anymore, she felt tears started to falls down from her open eyes,
            “But I thought you want us to be together?” he said, with his heart aching, he thought that with whatever had happened, both of them would be happier together. It seemed like it was all wrong. But he only hear her sobbing next to him, he was sure that she tries to run away, but how could he even let that happen? She’s going to be with him forever.
            Does she still even want him?
            “I don’t love you, Akiyama Masaki,” she said, he bit his finger spontaneously, feeling his heart that wasn’t supposed to be beating anymore race impulsively, he closed his eyes for sometimes, trying to bad to control his anger, the fierce emotion that started to erupt worse than the vicious volcano that explodes within distance times, pouring out the unduly, without any boundary of fervid scalding misery, he turned his sight towards her.
            His eyes somehow changed from brown to gruesomely red in its furriness, he bit his lips as if he was aching his unliving soul for another disaster.
            “You don’t want me, huh?” he asked her, she falls down on the couch behind her, holding her body close to herself, he walked closer to her, missing for a few second, leaving her blank for a short time, she shrieked as he hold her so close from behind,
            “MASAKI!!” she screamed. He adores her frightful fear to be in his arms, she tried to pushed him hard, but how was that even possible? His strength were much greater than five men all together, his hunger are worse than men who were covetous for one night dinner, he looked around the mess that he had done,
            “What’s wrong, baby?” he whispers, pleasing himself with her body odor, he sniffed her insightful neck,
            His undoubtedly know that his anger couldn’t decline anymore.
            “I want you, baby,” he told her, repeating the same thing over and over again, she kept on refusing him,
            “Please, Masaki,” she cries for a little sympathy, but why would even he care about it? He doesn’t have a true heart or any emotion anymore. He is a heartless creature exist in this world. He decided to give her a longer life, but with what she has done, he don’t even need her anymore in his life,
            He took a deep breath, “Masaki,” she called for him, holding his arms that was wrapped around her neck, trying to pulled it away, he turned her around,
            “I love you, Tamiko,” he whispered to her.
            “I did this because I only want you,” he told her again.
            She couldn’t even stand still anymore. She doesn’t know what else to do other than taking the deepest breath, “I love you too, Masaki,” she told him, in hoping to escape. He laughed at her a little bit, gripping her shoulder, looking deeply into her eyes, “Why, Tami,” he asked her, caressing her cheek, “I swear that I love you, Masaki,” she told him again.
            He let her go, holding her close in his arms, caressing her back gently, he felt her holding him back, but he just looked at those fresh bodies that was soaking with their blood, he licked his lips, “Why do you have to lie to me?”
            I need to survive,
            she thought on her own.
            Tamiko fell silent, he looked at her once again, it’s just that his glare turned from a man he once were before to someone who don’t even care about anyone anymore,
            “I am not,” she said, but he held her close in his arms once again, “You are the biggest liar, Tamiko,” he said, with a smile across his face.
            She closed her eyes, “Please, Masaki,” she plead for his mercy, she didn’t even feel anything else apart from him breathing, caressing her hair, she closed her eyes,
            “Please,” she cries again.
            He opens his eyes wide,


            He put on his newly bought Ralph Lauren Alligator Equestrian belt, nicely put on the belt buckle and centered its position, he touched his own neck for a few second before he walked towards the closet inside his room, he open one side of the door,
            “This one looks perfect,” he said, taking out the navy blue white dotted stripe shirt, putting it on his bare skin. He ran his fingers through his hair, messing it up a little for a nice time out in a while, he slowly moved his thumb down at the side of his jaw, biting it a little.
            He took the Dolce & Gabbana’s fragrance, and puts it on a little bit on himself. With his  odor that’s just hot enough, he was sure that he surely will torment hearts and souls of women as he plan to spend his whole night not being in this house.
            “Now this is more like it,” he said, slowly buttoning his shirt down, one by one, leaving an open air at the top of it, revealing his bare neck. He looked at his reflection in the mirror, adjusting the position of his Azure Amethyst pendant chain necklace.
            He walked towards the bedroom door, “It’s your night, Masaki,” he told himself, touching the door knob, with the most devious smile carved on his lips, he closed his eyes, taking a deep breath, he took his BMW 750i Sedan car key at the side table of his bed,
            “It’s your night,” he opens the door, but somehow fades out from sight to the other side of the house.         

            He walked towards the front door, but was surprised when a shadow suddenly appears in front of his eyes, he looked at that person, irritatingly,
            “Hello, Sunohara,” he said, with the most unpleasant smile on his face, he turns around walking away from the path he was thinking of taking, but Sho looked at him, disgustedly, with a shudder running through his veins, he followed where Masaki was going, Masaki smiled on his own,
            This guy really can’t get over me, he smirked a little, but stopped at the small bar to get something to get him a little high before he want to spend his time outside tonight, but Sho grabbed his hand before he could take a sip of that vodka bottle in his hand, Masaki turned around and looked at him,
            “You miss me that much, eh Brother?” he asked him, feeling how irritate Sho was, he pulled his hand away from his grasp, taking a long sip of it, wiping his lips with his fist once he was done, Sho had a long sigh, “Who are you calling your brother?” Sho asked him suddenly, when Masaki had a big laugh, “You never change, Sho,” he said, licking his lips a little bit, he walked passed by him. Sho turned around and looked at him, “Where are you going, Masaki?” he asked him somehow made him had a big sarcastic laughter, he looked at him, taking another sip, he smiled, tauntingly,
            “And what are you?” he raised his eyebrow, but Sho only gave him a long glare, but like he ever care.
            “My mother?” he asked him, putting the bottle back at the counter, walking away from there, Sho just looked at from far sighted since he knows how fast Masaki can be, how clean he would escape his crime that was done without any sympathy. He knows that man like him won’t ever change.
            He looked at him, and smiled, “I’m going out,” he told him, Sho moved towards him, but he disappear from there but reappear somewhere else inside that room, “Great catch,” he teased him..
            Sho looked at him with thousands of hatred boiled up his inner core, “Stop doing all of this, Masa,” he told him, but Masaki turned around, not facing him, he lifted his hands up, “You know I don’t like to be late,” he said, Sho took a deep breath, as he run to get him,
            “Chao,” he told him, and disappear before he even reach the front door. Sho felt his urge to kill him gets worse each second he saw his face walking around in this house, “Relax, Sunohara,” he told himself, looking at the wooden stick on the wall, but how could he even have a heart to do that since he knows that Masaki is the only one person that is from his,
            He looked down,
            “Please don’t go it anymore, Masaki,” he said on his own, walking towards the staircases, and walked up stairs.
            He turned off the light.

3rd May 2012

Dear Diary,
It was only a quarter to to next day, and I still can't close my eyes even though I have  a rehearsal for the upcoming stage play, I still can't fall asleep.
I heard that they are opening for the lead character possition since there's something wrong with Shigeru's ( the main actor, duh ) condition after he got into an accident and broke his right hand.
I wonder who's going to go in??
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
That's not the biggest problem anyway.
I'd make J as my parter in crime but I know he won't ever be delighted to be in the play anyway.
Here's another issue that I can't get off my mind,
most of the time.
Almost every time..

After the first time I ever talked to him on that day, i felt a little different with my life.
Well, not literally, but...
People might not notice any changes since i'm living my life like a normal human being as usual, it's just that every time I saw him, I would feel my heart ...

Urgh!! How can I explain this...

I can't even think when I see him there, how worse it could be when he smiled to me...
My heart flip from side to side each time I see him.
Butterflies in my belly, I couldn't even barely breathe.
But when I think back logially, he's just a man that I will meet everyday until the day I graduate.

Get a grip, Yuki.
He's only a man.

.....But I'm a woman....

I don’t understand why, why does it always feels different when it’s with him?
Is it something wrong with me?
I just know that guy.
I’m sure that it’s nothing more than that.
I swear that I never feel like that when I'm with J.
I never feel like that with some other guys I know.

But when it’s with him...
I felt….
Poles apart from what I actually am…
Miyuki Takeda…

Why him?
Why Sunohara Sho?


            He closed his eyes for a moment and feel like glamourous time outside tonight, Ah, this is what you call heaven, he told himself, walking around inside the 5 star club in Saitama-shi, suddenly a few semi drunk girls walked towards him, "Baby," the girl in emerald green blouse and a mini skirt called for him, with her hand on his chest, he looked at her, sensing that they are just some freshies that he could get within one smile, he felt another one wrapped her arms around his waist,
            "Come and dance with us," she said, as he felt her teasing him a little by caressing her thigh againts his. He smiled, wrapping both arms around them, he gave each one of them a kiss on their lips for a second.
            Those girls felt like they were in paradise,
            "Be with us," the girl in pink said, but Masaki just smiled, caressing their cheek, moving down their neck, how he knows he would be enoying himself if he would have them in his hand, "Oh ladies," he said, making those two girls looking at him like a puppy in search for it's own mommie, he felt both of them started to leaned so much closer to him, but he patted their cheek a little bit,
            "Would you mind waiting for me?" he asked them, when both of them nodded their head instantly, the emerald girl took a deep breath, sniffing for his body odour, caressing his build up chest, that somehow tickles him a little, she kissed it for a short time, "We'll wait for you even forever," she said, but somehow in hoping that he would pay them, he just smiled, "Good girls," he said, giving them a kiss once again, as he pushed the two of them aside, somehow had as if both of them were hypnotism by his smile, he gave them a short kissed before letting both of them off his grasps, he smiled to them before he walked towards the bar counter with the most charming smile across his face.
            He turned around and looked at those two cute girls, "I'll be back," he said, winking his eyes. It seemed like everyone there was giving him a pleasent smile. Surely eneough who would even resist the existance of him there tonight, he sat in front of bar counter, giving the young age bartender woman a smile,
            "Can you give me a Martini?" he asked her.
            She looked at him with a smile across her face, "Sure," she said, taking the glass, she did what she always do for the drink he asked for, she gave him a short peek, she raised her eyebrow a little bit,
            I never seen him around,
            He looked at her,
            “Is there any problem, miss?” he asked her, with a gorgeous smile flashes across his lips, she felt her heart gives a little knocked out. She was startled for a few second seeing him like that in front of her.
            A man who’s wearing just a pair of jeans, half way opened shirt, isn’t it just casual, or normal enough for a men to go on a ladies night like this, but why does she felt a little different with this guy?
            She gave him a smile, "Now, who wouldn't assist a charming man like you anyway," she said, putting the drink down in front of him, but he touched her hand spontaneously, looking at her deep through her beautiful brown eyes, it seemed like she was lost in a sudden.
            Her heart pound instantly,
            Why? She bit her lips,
            Even though how hard she was trying to avoid looking into his eyes, but how can she ever refuse him? The eager to know him more made her can’t even stand on her feet anymore.
            Their eyes locked for a few, even if the music was playing to loud, but she can still hear how hoarsely his breath changed within time that passed, she was captured in his eyes.
            He kissed her hand, "Be with me tonight?" he asked her as she felt his warm breath touched against her bare cold skin,
            He really wants me…
            She closed d her eyes, but then gave him a little smile, "I'll finish my work at four," she told him, while she looked to the other side for a moment, taking an order from a man that seemed to want her as sell, he grabbed a hold of her hand close against his.
            She gave him a peek into his eyes,
            "Unless you don't mind waiting," she said, Masaki gave her the most guileful smile, as that’s how he naturally is. He licked his lips after taking a sip from the drink she had made especially for him,
            "I'd be glad," he told her, giving her a kiss on her cheek, just so close enough to her lips, somehow that made her want him more,
            “I’ll be waiting,” she told him.


            It was on a Friday afternoon, dated 5th of May, where everything outside seemed to be quite hot enough for a regular day, but the temperature wasn't as fierce as it could be, he took a deep breath and looked at the empty hall way,
            I'm late once again, he grumbled, looking at his watch as the time ticks from twelve fifteen to another minute it has changed, he sighed as he closed his locker’s door, and walked towards the entrence of the students paradise. The library.
            But he stopped for a moment when he saw a sign at the side of the notice board as he enters that quietest place, he raised his eyebrow, reading the colorful notice there.
            “Main actor for the Romeo and Juliet Stage Play. Role offered as Romeo. Main cast, for the Theater of A day before Summer 2012,” he reads it, looking at unintrested as he can be, he tried his best to hide away his laughter,  but he only gave a small smirk, teasing whoever who would be interested to even be part of that play,
            Who would want to be in that play anyway? I’m not that desperate to be in the centre of attention to be laughed at. Or even bother to think to be the main role of this kind of play. Who would wants to act a scene from that century anyway? he thought, leaning closer on his arm that was already on the board, he played around with the paper that was almost thorn on that old, full of historic board.
            He bit his lips for a little white,
            She hath forsworn to love and in that vow, he read one of the line that he remembered of the play on his own tone, imitating how would the actual character would even spoke, grinning just so wide, letting out a slight laughter, not even know if it was the correct sentence or what so ever, the girl who was in charge of the library gave him a glare, putting her point finger on her lips, telling him to keep it quiet,.
            Ah, there's Kazuko Fujiwara. The quietest person he ever known, but she can be strange most of the time, but why would I care about that? He thought own his own and just give her a smile, telling her sorry but without any voice came out from his mouth, Kazuko nodded her head as he grabbed a piece of paper regarding the play, he winked his eyes to her, but she only looked at him as if it was nothing, he lifted his shoulder up, he just smiled and walked towards the empty table at the side of the window that he usually sat down, if he was lucky to even get that seat anyway.
            “Now, let’s do some reading,” he murmured, sharpening the word that he must, but it seemed like he don't even bother, as he place the notes that he had brought in a moment ago down on the table, he opened the pages where he had stop, quite a long time ago but he changed his gaze towards the side for a few moment, putting both of his bare palm on the pages, he had a long sigh,
            If only the class after this canceled, he whined, leaning down on his palm that was on the table, he looked at the semi empty room, with all the books nicely arranged in the cupboards from side to side, he rubs his nose with one of his finger, not hoping if someone who would understand his boredom being there, he closed his eyes I would surely go back home, he whined on his own again, leaning closer with his face down on the notes, he exchanged a little position, covering his face with the book, while putting his other palm on the notes he got just took about that lousy play, but somehow, he fallen asleep without anyone even know what he was doing there.


            it was a calm weather a moment ago, where the unruffled breeze gently blew againts his skin that was standing at the side of the hall way, in his white shirt, part way unbutton, a black jeans, and a brown boots, he took a deep breath as he suddenly felt everything changed in an instant as he heard footsteps walked in towards his direction.
            The place that were once warm, turned quite hot and discomfort humid in a sudden, he took a deep breath as he scents the gorgeous perfume that he always loved, he turned around and saw her standing there, hiding behind his own shadow, he took a deep breath, giving her the most generous smile he could possibly have given.
            He saw her once again.
            A beautiful, pale skinned woman, with the most radiant odour he ever felt close to his heart, he looked into her eyes,
            "Juliet," he calls for her name,
            but she just smiled to him. Wearing a beautiful pink laced, white dress, and a pair of heels that isn't so high, he tried to reach out for her, but it seemed like her shadow keep on shading away each second he gets nearer to her,
            "Romeo," she calls for him, even though her voice was still heard, her shadow was getting thinner than the air that was flowing gently againts two of them.
            He tries to get closer, but she still just smile to him, "Romeo," she calls for his name once again, as he ran closer to her, her shadows just,
            "JULIET!!!" he screamed so hard, wishing that someone would hear his cries for his only love,  when he suddenly felt someone touching him, over and over again, but as he turned around, he still he nothing.


            "Juliet," he mumbled on his own, "Oh, Juliet, don't go away from me," he whispers in a very gentle voice when he still feel someone touching his back,
            "Don't leave me on my own, Juliet," he continues,
            "Don't leave me astray!" he said, feeling terrified to be left the only one that he love, he felt his heart breaks down to thousands of pieces,
            "Where are you, my love," he mumbled on his own again,

            Manami looked at Jun strangely, she shakes his shoulder couple of times, "Oi! MatsuJun!" she calls for his name, poking his face with her finger, but he stiill didn't bother,
            "Juliet..." he continues mumbling again.
            She shakes her head, when she saw the Theater pamphlet underneath his fingers, she took it away, "In search for Romeo's actor," she read the line that seemed to be s scribble with his hand writing, she had a long smile, she leaned closer and whispers to his ear,
            "Hey Romeo," she said, touching the tip of his ear, when she felt his sudden gesture changes, she had a tiny laugh, she blew some air to his ear, "Juliet," he called for her, Manami bit her lips trying to hold back her laughter,
            "Wake up, my dearest Romeo," she called for him, teasing him so bad during his fantasy dream, she cover her lips with her palm, "Why did you go from me, Juliet," he asked her, she messed up his hair,
            "MatsuJuN!!!" she screamed lightly at his hear when he opened his eyes in an instant,
            "What? What?" he asked, looking around just like he just saw a ghost, Manami had a laugh, she patted his back, remembering at first when she saw him talking on his own for the past five minutes ago, she thought that he might gone crazy, but who would know what's really wrong with his brain at that time anyway.
            She smiled to him, "Are you not feeling well, my dear prince?" she asked him, teasing him a little, but he frowned to her,
            "And what are you saying?" he asked her, feeling completely confused with everything that was going on, Manami gave him a smile when she took out the book that she wanted to read,he pulled her closer him him, "Come on," he said, but she just act like she don't bother anything, she took out her Ipad, but he took it away from her.
            She turned to him, "What?" she asked him, raising one side of her eyebrow's up, he touched her hand, 'Come on, girl," he said to her again, looking at her so innocently to convince her that he would do anything for her to tell him what was going on, Manami nodded her head, "Okay, you're being too cute, Jun," she told him, patting his should, she picks up the book to continue reading, but he took it away from her,
            "Oh come on, Manami," he said, starting to get not indulgent enough to really know everything, he moves his fingers closer to her hips, knowing that how sensitive she could be if anyone would ever touch her there, not to worry if she might do something out of limit without even being aware of anything, she gave him the most sharpest glare,
            "Matsuda," she said his name, when his fingers moves closer towards her hips, she looked deeply into his eyes, warning him about the consiquences that might happen if he ever think about doing that to her, but he didn't even blink his eyes, "And should I even be scared?" he asked her, she blinks he reyes for a few times, but she took a deep breath at the end, "You seriously want to know?" she asked him, with him nodding his head, pleading for some sympathy, she smiled looking at him like that, she scrunches his head,
            “You want to join in the play?” she asked him, holding the pamphlet that she saw on the desk, he shakes his head for a couple of times,
            “And tell me why should I?” he asked her, but she just smile to him, "Well, I don't know but it seemed like you can't get Juliet off your head," she told him, taking the book back from his hand, she continues to read it, Jun scratches his head,
            I can't get Juliet off my head? He looked at her,
            "What do you mean?" he asked her, she just smiled a little behind the book she was holding, she had a short peek to him, "Seriously, I think you should try to be Romeo," she told him again, but she shocked his head, "I told you, Mana," he said, grumbled a little, he frowned looking at her, "I won't be in that Play even though I'm going to be the Prince of England of the...," but Manami cuts in,
            "Even though the lead is Miyuki?" she said, giving him a smile, she continues what she was doing a moment ago.
            Jun fell silent for a few moment,
            What is she saying?


            "Ay me! what news? why dost thou wring thy hands?" she said, looking towards the nurse who was telling her the greatest news of disillusion, the nurse looked at her, trying to pleased her heart, but how can that ever be done so,  "Ah, well-a-day! he's dead, he's dead, he's dead!" she told her lady 'Juliet', looking at face expression that was down in despair,  "We are undone, lady, we are undone!," she said again, when Juliet turns around and walked to the other side of the hall, but the nurse bows down, "Alack the day! he's gone, he's kill'd, he's dead!" she gave her the news,
            Juliet looked away, feeling her heart was collapse, shattered thousands of precious love, how could she thought about loosing the man that she ever loved, she took a deep breath,
            "Can heaven be so envious?" she said, feeling tears started to gather behind her eyes, she tries her hard to control her urge to bawl, but how can she ever do if she hoped that was untrue?
            The nurse looked at her, though only from a distance, she tries to understand but how can she ever disobey,
            "Romeo can," she said. "Though heaven cannot: O Romeo, Romeo!" she told her, feeling vicious enough on a man who would have hurt the beautiful lady, who wouldn't care how fregile a heart could be, how delicate a women can be, she closed her eyes, "Who ever would have thought it? Romeo!" she said to Juliet who fell down on the couch behind her, she covers her face with her palm that was covered with a soft white mitt,
            "What devil art thou, that dost torment me thus? This torture should be roar'd in dismal hell," she said, feeling so woeful with his loss, she hold her hands closer to each other, "Hath Romeo slain himself? say thou but 'I,'," she closed her eyes, without noticing any, her tears fallen one drop on her soft, pink cheek, "And that bare vowel 'I' shall poison more, Than the death-darting eye of cockatrice," he stood up, walking towards the opened air balcony, she took a deep breath, "I am not I, if there be such an I, Or those eyes shut, that make thee answer 'I.'," she said, feeling that she can't breathe no more, she wonder if her heart still palpitates in this sorrowful desire she felt,
            "If he be slain, say 'I'; or if not, no,"
            "Brief sounds determine of my weal or woe," she finished her sentence, when the light turns down, and suddenly heard people giving them an applause,

            Miyuki smiled though was still hidden behind the darkness, she walked towards the shadow of light, when it was turned on once again. She looked at Fumiko Tatsuya,
            "That was great," she said, touching her shoulder with a little smile, she returned it back to her, "Hey, you're not bad yourself," she said, taking off the the white nurse cap on her head, she put it aside, "If only we can find your Romeo as soon as we can, you know that we'll be practicing the final scene already," she told her but Miyuki only had a small laugh,
            "Hey, you can't blame Shigeru when that kind of thing happen, you know," she told Fumiko, when she just nodded her head, "Yeah, I guess you are right," she said, looking at the watch she was wearing on her hand, she turned her gaze to the other side,
            she bit her lips, "Hey, Yuki. I think I better go back home now because it started raining," she told Miyuki,
            "Yeah, I think you better get going before the rain falls on you," she told her,when Fumiko smiled to her, taking her bag and walked outside,
            "I hope your Romeo will be here soon!" she said, with a last smile and wave, she walked out from the backstage.
            Miyuki closed her eyes for a short time,
            Yeah, me too.
She took the script that was laying on the make up take in front of her, flipping the pages even though without any intention to read, she sighed a long sigh, gripping her fist for a moment, putting the book down as she walked towards the other side of the room.
            If only I can really find my Romeo,
            she thought, with a short sigh, she smiled on her own, when sudden;y she heard Mr Takizawa called for all of them to gather upfront,
            she blinks her eyes,
            "Coming!" she said in a semi loud tone, rushing outside the room.


            He sat all by himself after Manami had left for her class ten minutes ago,. He leaned back on the chair and started to think on his own, recalling back the conversation he had with her a moment ago,

             Manami looked at him, "You don't know what she's in that play?" she asked him, when he just shocked his head a couple of times, running his fingers againts his jaw, he bit his lips a little, "Oh... And how would I know that?" he asked her, she lifted her shoulder up,
            "I don't know," she response, "I thought the two of you are like more than a friend but less than a lover?" she said. Jun nodded his head,
            Back to the current time,, Jun rubs his eyes with his fingers,
            That's quite true,
he thought on his own, he bit his lower lips a little, recalling back what she had told him a moment ago, though how he don't want to believe whatever she had told him, but he guess it was true.
            How come he did not know?
            He closed his eyes once again for a few second, Why do I feel like this suddenly? He wondered alone, when he opens his eyes a little bit.
            Even though how he don’t want to be apart of any drama anymore since whatever had happened to him in the last one he was in, but this time, his heart was crying, eager to be on stage once again.
            I’m doing this for myself?
           He questioned himself, was just puzzled with what was going on, he suddenly remembered her smile,
            Or do I just want to be closer to you?
            He grasps his fist tigher than before, smacking it on the desk he was at, he nodded his head, “I’ll do it for myself,” he said, lying to himself, he knows that wasn’t the actual reason. He knows it was just a conspiration for him to deny whatever that was true in his heart, he was afraid if the person he care for the most would go away from his sight if he ever confess.
            Pleading for her love to be in his, he release his fist slowly, but stood up instantaneously,
            “I’ll do it,” he said, grabbing his bag on the couch, taking the phamplet he took a moment ago with him, he walked towards the exit of the place where he was at, he closed his eyes as he felt his feet was moving in twice speed than how he regularly move, he took a deep breath, releasing it out slowly, he knows even if he wasn’t sure, but he have to do it.
            It was obvious that he wasn't interested to be in that  play, but if that’s the only chance he’ll ever get to be close to her, her being in his arms only for a time being, he was already glad if that ever happen even though only an act.
            He would take any risk just to be with her.
            He looked at the empty hall way as almost everyone who don’t have any more classes after a moment ago had gone back home, but he was still there.
            He looked ahead, "I got to try this," he said, taking clenching his fist together, giving him faith to be doing whatever he had left for almost a year, he adjust the bag position on his shoulder before he ran as fast as he could towards the direction he was heading for,
            The drama class,
            and he surely don't want to waste anymore time before someone else took the position that he wanted,
            to be in her arms once again.
            He closed his eyes for a short time,
            “Yuki,” he whispers.

            Mr. Takizawa walked in the center stage, clapping his hands together to get attention from his casts for the play, he clear his throat since no one seemed to be playing attention to him, :CLASSES!” he called for us in a semi high tone voice, Miyuki who was having a conversation with her friends turned around to look at that tall, mid age guy, who is just handsome enough to be every girl’s dream, she touched the girlnext to her’s hand, “Nini,” she called for her, when she turned to look at her,
            “What?” she asked her, when Miyuki had a small laughter, pointing towards the man who’s wearing a nicely tucked in shirt, with a tie, and a black pants, she smiled,
            “He’s calling for us,” Miyuki told her, when Nini looked at him, “Oh!! I want to get close to him!” she said, with a smile across her face, she grabbed Miyuki’s hand and ran towards the center stage,
            “Ehh!!” Miyuki opened her eyes, grabbing her script on the desk she was sitting at, she looked at Nini.
            Even though she knows how the situation is with Mr. Takizawa, but she always said that she can changed him to be the man of her dream. Even if obviously, she can’t.
            "Come here, everybody," Mr Takizawa said, calling everyone closer to the center stage. Miyuki nodded her head, moving along with the others, she smiled when Nini really did sat in front of his eyes, and Miyukiwonder what does he wanted to tell all of us in a sudden.
            Nini looked , and called for her, “Yuki!” she said, pointing to the seat that she already saved for her, Miyuki nodded her head, “I’ll be right there,” she said, even though she knows that she can’t hear a thing.
            She sat at the chair that was empty chair Nini had saved for her, “You got excited,” she teased her, but Nino only smiled, dreamingly looking at his face, Miyuki took out a note, as she was holding back her laughter.
            Maybe it’s something important
            she mumbled, opening the note, she took out a pen and started to scribbled down the date today,
            "Now, now, boys and girls," he said, putting his hands together  with a friendly smile across her face, Miyuki turned her gaze towards Nini who was already melted in his remedy, she smile a little,
            Girls can be crazy when they want to be,
            Mr Takizawa took a deep breath before he continue want he wanted to tell all of them,
            "I know after the incident that happened to Shigeru Nakada, it seemed like all of us isn’t really happy to be practicing without our dearest Romeo,” he told everyone, putting one side of his hand on his chest, it seemed like he was in his blue for the forfeit from one of his best cast, but how can you undofate anyway?
            “Maybe he would be smiling to see how all of you will be acting without him in the set, but,” he took a deep breath and gave all of them a little smile,
            Subaru lifted his hands up, “Yes, Subaru?” he asked him, when he raised his eyebrow, “And what does this have to do with everything?” he asked, but Miyuki had a little laugh.
            Tama Subaru, a tall, tanned man with broad shoulders, perfect image and always have the guts to be doing anything he feel like doing, but sadly, almost clueless with everything that was going on, Mr Takizawa looked at him with a smile across his face,
            “I already have someone who wanted to replace Shigeru’s position in the play!” he told everyone, looking just excited.
            Miyuki opened her eyes,
            Heh, lucky for your wish Miko,
            she said, remembering when the nurse’s best wishes on a new Romeo.
            Everyone there clapped their hands, “And I’m so excited to introduce to you who is he!” he said again, when Miyuki smiled,
            Maybe this is only an act, at least it will give her a small experience on how to love and cherish a man, even though only for a short time.
            Mr. Takizawa clapped hir hand, “Now everyone, please welcome,” he said, as Miyuki looked at who enters the center stage with them.
            She fell silent,
            Who am I kidding?
            She thought on her own. Her head went empty, she didn’t even hear what everyone was saying around her anymore, feeling her pulse started to skipped, she blinked her eyes for a few times to wonder if she was dreaming,
            Why would he be here anyway?

            “Now everyone give an applause to Mr,” but before she could even finish listening to what Mr. Takizawa was saying, she touched herself to make sure that she wasn’t sleeping,
            Sunohara Sho…

Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Beast with a true Love : Chapter 3


2nd May 2012
Dear Diary,
  How am I feeling a little better these past few days. Maybe what has happen before had nothing to do with me or my life, but…
  Yeah, I guess I’m doing alright.
  With J and Mana always there with me, I believe I can still move on with my own world.
  Though somehow….
  The strangest thing is, I…
  Urghh!! How can I even explain this.
  I keep on telling everyone that I’m doing fine, but I…
  Oh my Lord. How can I even explain everything that’s going on in my heart with a ll of the confusion? Distraction? Or not even believing what is the real, actual thing that was going on?
  I just lost two of the nicest girl I’ve ever known, and now, I can’t even think about anything else apart of that. 
  And maybe I shouldn’t be thinking about that other thing that kept on bothering my mind. 
  Why am I even living in all these false fraction of truth?
  Why am I denying everything that has been upside down in my head?
  I know I can’t lie anymore…
  I can’t…

Miyuki breath out a long sigh, putting the pen down on her book, she close it, and pushing it aside, leaving the question she kept on asking, she turned to the side and look at the clock on her wall.
  It was almost one in the morning and she still hasn’t managed to kill the time by going to sleep, as she stood up from her study table and walked towards the balcony of her room.
  She opens the window as the breeze from the outside world at the quietest night blew in. Perhaps almost all the creatures had fallen to their deepest dream, when she just shivers a little from the cold air. She looked at the dark, just solemn forest behind her room, with the sound of the midnight melody rhymes without tempo, she took a deep breath.
  “Beautiful night,” she whispers, looking at street light that isn’t really as bright as usually was, she turned her sight towards the moonlight that was shining brighter than ever as if there was a special occasion.
  She had a small laugh,
  now, what occasion am I thinking about anyway?
  She smiled all alone, as she had a short sigh, thinking about what was playing in her heart,
  “Sunohara Sho,” she whispers that name, thinking when she saw him again, yesterday.
  She closed her eyes shut for a short time, remembering back once again of his gorgeous smile and a perfect figure with a pleasant appearance. 
  He was only wearing a plain black t-shirt and navy blue jeans. Though how simple he was then, she clenches her jaws together, gripping her fist tight, she kept on asking herself why she can't get him off her mind? Why does her heart felt in tremendous heart mystification?? Why is she even thinking like this? Shouldn't she just be doing what she always was?
  An outgoing person, with no reason to even be depress over nothing this ridiculous?
  She opened her eyes again, 
  "Stop it, Yuki," she told herself, with a little smile, she turns around and walked back inside the room, but as she closed her bedroom door, something purred a little aggressively on the earth ground outside of her house, staring directly at the exact direction she was standing a moment ago.
  He walked towards the side, “Yuki,” he grunted in his heart, how his heart was in an uncertain melody, he moved forward ahead;
  The creature looked at her beautiful wooden base, two tone colored, double story house, he moves on his four paws, he climbs up on the entrance, crawling itself up the blissfully bloomed Sakura tree, the creature sat calmly in front of her bedroom window.
   He blinks his eyes for a few times, using its paws to touch his white stripe fur, neatly clean coated white fur, he closed his eyes for a bit,
  though somehow, he changed within a second, he leaned against the tree,
  Sunohara Sho looked at the beautiful young lady who was in her deep sleep, how he wish he was next to her, 
  How he wish he can make her his,
  he took a deep breath, “I’ll promise you,” he whispers,
  “I’ll make you to keep you safe in my arms,” he said, touching the branch of the tree, gazing the view in front of his eyes, he looked at her even though from a distance but felt like he was holding her close right by his side.
  Sho nodded his head, hiding himself behind the shadow, of the cold white fog, he closed his eyes as he change to the white tiger he was before and jumps off the tree, walking away from the house, he disappear within second time passed by.


  It was around four fifteen in the evening, when the sun was beginning to sink down the horizon Miyuki's Economy class finished first before Manami and Jun since they were in a different caurses, she walked towards the cafeteria at the further side of the U, after she took all of her assignment with her, she feels like being on her own for some times.
  "And Takizawa couldn't make it to the last class," she mumbled  feeling a little disapointed that she couldn't be in the Technology class today, but somehow, she do feel delighted as well since she's on her own, she smiled to herself.
  She put her sling bag down, unzipping it and took out the novel that she still haven't finished reading, but somehow, she looked to the person who walked passed by her table holding a glass of hot mocha in her hand.
  She took a deep breath,
  “Maybe I need one too,” she said, with a little smile, she walked towards the order counter.


  “Stop it, Kei,” he said, looking at her standing in front of his eyes, avoiding the gaze that she was trying to give, he looked away, deceiving any attempt to even get closer to her, but she hold his hand, 
  “Give me another chance, J,” she said, he looked at her sharply, “Don’t dream of calling me that again,” he told her, feeling just aggravated thinking of what had happen between the two of them in the previous time, he gripped his fist and turned around.
  Perhaps everyone said that their relationship was an eternal affair, but why only one incident ruined the love he ever had for her in his heart?
  Maybe it’s true that love might take feeling to the next level of an emotions, but if fates don’t bring two hearts together, what other things can be done? Even how long you’ve been together, even how long he had been beside her, anything can be torn even if it’s only in a flick of time.
  He took a deep breath, 
  “Jun,” she leaned closed behind his back, he felt that he was still cage in his own pathway of life, he knew that he got to escape from everything. from anything.
  “I really love you, Jun,” she whispers to him, somehow he can’t really hear it, but he was sure that was it.
  His breath stop at mid-stepped of inhaling the fresh air in his surrounding, the hair behind his back rose up until it’s end, feeling her arms wrapped around him close, how is it possible for me to even stopped her from anything. He knows she won’t even bother listening. She sure wants to have what she said she wanted.
  He tried to pushed her away, but she don’t want to let him go,
  “Kei,” he tries to speak, but how was it even possible when their lips were sealed against each other.
  His heart stopped in a single flash, feeling like he was floating in the thin air, his thoughts went light headed, when she turned him around, pressing her lips against his, his eyes opened wide.
  What am I doing? What is this feeling? I… 
  He only stood there straight,
  clueless with what was happening, he still felt her lips,
  how sweet the scent was, her fragerance that he always love her wearing, how can he lied to himself, he moves his hands a little,
  I seriously don’t…
  He closed his eyes shut, shielding it from the reality, he gripped his fist once again, 
  I don’t love her anymore…
  She don’t own my heart like she used too…
  I know I don’t love her,
  he took a deep breath, grabbing both side of her arms and pushed her behind,
  “I don’t love you, Keiko,” he told her, pushing her aside, he grabbed his bag and walked right passed by her.
  “JUN!!” he heard her calling for his name, he closed his eyes, 
  Don’t find me anymore, Keiko, he told himself,
  Maybe everyone said that she was perfect, with her appearance, shoulder length hair, beautiful body curve, gorgeous smile.
  She always find her way to matched up everything in her life. She have a great future ahead of her life, but how he wishes that she would find someone better than him.
  Their relationship together for almost eight years might had blossom to a beautiful blooming Sakura, but how can he ever accepted if he caught her being with someone else with his own judgment?
  What was the use of him in her life if he can’t give her what she needed apart from money? 
Even though it wasn’t his mistake in everything, he still takes all the blame.
  He closed his eyes,

  She had a small laugh, “You love to play around with me, Jun,” she told the man who was standing beside her, quite taller, wearing a brown short sleeved t-shirt, and a dark blue jeans, she smiled to him, “You love doing that,” she said, pushing his shoulder with her small palm a little, he gave her the most charming smile ever,
  “Really?” he asked her, when she had a small giggled, “Yeah,” she replied, he hold her hand, feeling the coldness of it runs trough his palm, he squeeze it a little, giving her a little warmth, he felt her pinching his nose a little, “And you don’t like it?” he asked her, when she just smiled, kneeling up, and kissed his lips,
  “No,” she smiled, “I never said that,” she told him, when he pulled her closer to him, sitting down on the bench behind them, he messed her hair a little, “I know that,” he said, when she pushed him a little, “Jun!” she grumbled, but he just smiled to her, 
  “What?” he asked her, she just gave him a smile, “You know how much I love you, Jun,” Keiko said, with a smile on her face, as he held her close in his arms, he kissed her cheek, appreciating every minutes, each second he was with her, he caress her back gently, “I love you too, Kei,” he told her.
  She turned to face his beautiful, ingenuous eyes, she touched his gentle skin with her cold fingers when he holds it, giving it a gentle kiss, he looked at her deep in her eyes,
  “Thank you for being with me, Keiko,” he told her, when she smiled, wrapping her arms around his neck, she gave her a quick kiss on his lips, making his heart eager to own her more, but he respect her life choices, to make it special after a marriage.
  Their marriage perhaps, he took a deep breath and kept his wishes deep inside his heart, he was hoping that it was hers as well.
  She kissed his lips once again,
  “No, Jun,” she caress his cheek,  feeling his pulse started to increased in a sudden effect, she knows that the love he had gave her would never, ever fades away from sight on her life, she caress her cheek against his, cherishing every moment they had with each other, she smiled to him so dearly, “Thank you for being here with me,” she told him, he wrapped his arms around her waist, and kissed her lips, 
  “I forever love you, Kei,” he confess his heart whispers, when she felt tears started to crumpled, hidden away behind her eyes, he wipes away a little of it that has fallen down, “I love you too,” she told him, when he pulled her closer in his arms, “Promise me that you’d be here for me, for eternal life,” she told him, he nodded his head, kissing her forehead, cherish the moment that was going on at that time, he prays it will last forever.
  “I promise you,” he replied, when she wrapped her arms around him, leaning close down his shoulder, smiling with tears running down her eyes.


  He gripped his fist, and took a deep breath,
  What’s with all those lies. Why would I still remember her anyway, he grumped all alone in his heart, he wiped his sweats on his forehead, and walked straight towards the cafeteria,
  “Don’t think of her, J,” he said, trying to give a smile alone, he thought about someone else that he really care for,
  “I don’t need her in my life,” he nodded his head,
  “I know I don’t need her anymore,” he said, “I don…” he walked towards the entrance but he felt a sudden blood rush ran down his spine when he saw something before he could even finished what he wanted to say,
  he opened his eyes wide,
  “Him,” he whispered his name slowly, hiding from being seen, he looked at what was happening.

  She smiled to him, looking at the outside world for a moment, she felt her heart started to beat faster than its regular time. Her pulse somehow increased without even being aware of what was happening right there.
  "Yeah," he replied to her, with the most dazzling smile on his face, she was sure that if she was there on her own, she might faint all of a sudden.
  She looked aside, trying to avoid his eyes that was shining against the sunlight outside, she took a deep breath,
   Oh come on, Yuki. He's just a human. Nothing more than that... Why am I feeling so scared like he's going to bite me and suck my blood until i die anyway?
  She keep on telling herself,
  "I'm sure that you're tired from the whole day in the University already," he told her when she just nodded her head, "Yeah., I guess you're right," she said, though she was facing him, she looked at something behind him instead of his eyes.
  Suddenly he leaned closer to her.
   She was startled. Standing just a few distance away from his face, she felt his breath touched her bare skin gently, she tried to moved away, but how can it even possible when on the other side of herself, she wishes that she would just hold him close in her arms, and make him hers.
  What am I thinking?
  She felt her pulse beats harder,
  What is he going to do to me??
  Her thought paused for sometimes, she jsut looked at him,
  Don't tell me he's' going too...
  She bit her lips.
  No, no, no. I'm not thinking straight. I'm not thinking straight!!
  She asked herself, blinking her eyes for a few times, she felt her heart started to feel not comfortable, it was just ruffled.
  His breath was just closer to her face, their lips was only a distance away, she felt like lifting her hands up to stop him from doing anything further, but she felt two of his fingers touched her blushing red cheek.
  She looked at him,
  "There's something underneath your eye," he said, showing something that he took a moment ago, she sighed out a relief sigh.
  It was just the confetti’s that they used for the stage play in her drama class just now, she had a small laugh,
  "It must have been the drama class just now," she told him, when he just smiled to her, "Oh, You're in the drama class?" he asked her, she just nodded her head, 
  "Yeah," she replied, when he smiled to her, as she returned it back, she was a little disconcerted with her own reality, she felt as if she was floating with her own fantasy, how she wishes she don't let it off her shoulder, how she wanted to carry it forever.
  He looked at her, "So, I'll see you tomorrow?" he told her,  "Yeah," she replied, one answer but clear enough she wasn't herself at that moment, he smiled to himself,
  I know you feel what I'm feeling too, Yuki,
  he told himself, he offers her a handshake,
  "Take care," he told her, when she smiled to him again,
  She took his offers and shakes his hand for a moment, "I'll see you tomorrow then, Sunohara," she said, when he had a small laugh, she raised her eyebrow, "What?" she asked wondered if she had made fun of herself, when he touched the end of her nose,
  "Just call me Sho," he told her.
  She took a deep breath, "Sho," she said his name again when he smield to her, 
  "Bye," he said, as he made his leave from her sight.
  She lifted her hands up, "Bye," waving to him, as he walked away from her sight. She closed her eyes, she hold the semi cold Mocha in her hand and walked towards her table. She sat down and took a deepest breath,
  "How did that even happen," she said, remembering back that small incident between she and him, but her voice was so slow, even the people at her side can't even hear what she said. As if like it has gotten mute, she touched the stained on her pink t-shirt.
  Maybe this is fate? She asked herself,  she closed her eyes and remembered back what really happened.

  She smiled to the cashier behind the counter, “Thank you so much,” taking her changes and hold the mocha in her hand. She took a sip of it before she walked away from there, but after a few distance steps she had, she stopped for a moment and felt that she had left something behind, she turns around, and saw her notes and books left at the side of the counter table,
  Oh, dang! How did I even forget about that!
  She grumbled to herself, she put the drinks at the table she was standing aside, putting her purse back inside her hand bag, she took her drinks once again and rushed towards the counter, worrying if she ever left that behind, how was she even going to finish the assignment that she have to hand over to Mr. Nakamura tomorrow.
  She stopped at the counter, gasping for some air, when the lady behind there smiled to her, “I did called you for a few times, but you didn’t hear me,” she told her, when Miyuki nodded her head, “Yeah,” she took a deep breath, “I am really sorry,” she told her, when that lady pushed the book closer to her because it seemed like Miyuki couldn’t even move any steps further anymore, she put her hand on the books, 
  “Thank you so much,” she told her, she nodded her head, responding to what she had told her, “It’s alright,” she replied. Miyuki had a small laugh, “I guess I was so drove away by this mocha I even forger about anything else,” she told her when she smiled, “I can see that,” she told her when a customer walked to the counter to make an order, she looked at Miyuki, “You got to excuse me,” she told her, Miyuki nodded her head, “Alright,” she replied, when she grabbed all of those books and notes she left a while ago, she hold it closer to her, she took the mocha right after that, “I’d kill myself if I have to do everything again,” she grumbled all by herself in a very soft tone.
  She turns around but without looking what was in front of her eyes, she took a step but accidently ran against someone who was standing in front of her, and her drink spilled out a little bit, falling down on his seemed-new black with a little red striped Converse sneakers, she felt her heart had fallen down on the ground, she fell silent, drowns in her own blunder confusion, she turned her gaze towards him, but somehow, made her worse,
  Oh my Lord, she felt her heart stopped beating for a moment, wasn’t even sure if she was still breathing, she tries to take a few second before she actually wakes up, she closed her eyes for a moment, feeling her cheek suddenly burns hot, she turns her gaze towards the side,
  “I’m really sorry,” she told him, “It’s alright,” he replied withd a small laugh, he took out his handkerchief, handing it to her, “Your blouse,” he pointed when she looked at herself,
  That will stain for sure! Looking at the mocha that fell a little on her pink blouse, she looked at him, “It’s okay,” she told him, feeling that she wasn’t even standing straight anymore, he hold her hand and put it on her hand, “Take it,” he told her, with a little smile across her face, she really was in her own flurry perplexity state of affairs, she nodded her head, “Thank you,” she told him, taking the soft blue handkerchief, wiping off the splash on her blouse, she tries so hard to give him a little smile, but she did manage to gave him one, somehow she hope it wasn’t that bad, she looked at him,
  “I’m really sorry about your sneakers,” she told him, when he gave her the most charming smile ever, “Nah, don’t bother with that,” he told her.
  She looked at him standing there in front of her eyes, 
  He’s such a nice guy, she thought, holding the handkerchief in her hand, she looked at it for a few second,
  “I promise I’ll return it back to you once I’ve washed it,” she said, he only shakes his head, “Don’t rush,” he said, “Take your time,” he told her, she just nodded her head, looking at him there, it seemed like there’s a charming prince from heaven above waiting for her arrival, but who was she kidding. Who is she anyway with this guy? She’s just a normal stranger to his eyes. Besides how can the most gorgeous guy in the University ever think of being with her anyway?
She had a small laugh in her heart,
  What am I thinking here, Yuki,
  “I’m Sunohara Sho,” he introduced himself to her, when she turned her gaze towards him once again, getting back to the reality, she was a little puzzled, but after sometimes, she manage to smile,
  “Oh, Hi Sunohara,” she greet him, “I’m Miyuki Takeda,” she replies, when he smiled to her once again,
  “I know,” he told her.


  She covers her face with both of her palm,
  She asked herself, unbelieving what has happened, she took a deep breath when suddenly her thoughts got into his imagine that she saw just now. His attraction that draws her attention, the emphasis that made her heart twitch, in an uneven tempo, excited but somehow recoiling with her own sentiment, she placed down her right hand flat on the table, smacking the notes by accident, she grasps her fingers tightly,
   "Yuki!" someone touched behind her back before she could even finished her sentence, she opened her eyes wide and looked towards the side.
  She blinks her eyes for a few times as if she only saw two shadows in front of her eyes, she see nothing else by her surrounding but she knows that it was a busy time of the day, people should be everywhere there.
  She rubs her eyes for a few times,
  "What?" she replied, opening her eyes once again and saw two of her best friends, Manami and Jun sitting down by her side at the square coffee table at the cafeteria,
  Jun raised his eyebrow's up, "What's with her?" he asked Manami, looking at her who was drinking her fresh Strawberry juice, covering himself up with some foolish questions, Manami lifed her shoulders up and gave him a smile, "She might be tired with her assignment," she told him, but he wiggle his point finger for a few times, refusing to believe what she had told him, he leaned so close to her, as he took a deep breath,
  "I don't think so," he said, sniffing her scent when Miyuki looked at him, pushing him to the side a little bit, "What do you mean?" she asked him, he put his fingers on his chin, trying to think like he always does, he looked around seriously, 
  taking a deep breath before he try to even speak, two of them looked at him, understanding his natural quaint behaviour, they opened their eyes wide to hear his final conclusion with everything,
  "What is it?" Manami asked him, but he just took a deep breath, he raised his head up slowly,
  "She," he said the first word, making Miyuki felt  sigltly unconfortable, afraid if whatever that happened was known too soon even before she was ready to tell, she felt seats started to dripped down her forehead in a calmly mid cold temperature, he looked at her sharply,
  closing his eyes, he let out a long breath before he looked at them once again,
  "Smelled like," he said, but still didn't finished his sentence, somehow made Miyuki a little discomfort, he took a deep breath before he finished what he wanted to tell them.
  I hope he don't know anything!!
  Miyuki grumbled on her own, Jun noticed that her face reaction changed within second time changes, he smiled alone in his heart,
  Don't worry. I don't kiss and tell, he whispered to himself, when he gave them the most malicious smile he could ever give, he closed one side of his eyes,
  "Mocha," he finally finished his sentence.
  Miyuki stood up straight, when Manami had her biggest laugh, but she looked at him, "What?" she asked him, Jun only drank his Coke,
  "I told you," he said, putting down that can, he gave them a smile, "She smells like Mocha," he grinned.
  Miyuki closed her eyes, relief with what he just said, she tries to control herself, avoiding from being obviously noticed, she let out a sigh,
  "And I thought you wanted to say you caught her making out with some strangers just now," manami said, when she looked at her, "Are you kidding me?" she asked her, but Manami only laughed, patting her shoulder, she gave her a smile, "Don't worry, baby," she told her, "I know you can hold it back in your own desire," she finished her line.
  Miyuki smiled to both of them, feeling calm in her own placid universe,  she joined in their laughter as their conversation continues,
  though silently, Jun still wondered what really had happened in between the two of them just now because they do seemed to be intimately close to one another.