Monday, 30 March 2015

Equation 112 : Bound of Love

In the bound of love,
Why do I still feel,
Those pain and suffer,
Those fallen tears,
Those terror that was horrifying you,
Your heart that still triggers every time you,
You were afraid to loose another life,
That you long to care for.
Why does the questions in your heart,
It was still bound deep,
Deep in a life that was,
Never meant for you,
The lost of love through lies that was,
Written for you,
Only love knows why,
Why through this life,
Through lies that was hidden behind,
Perhaps this is why...
My love for you shattered at that time...
Only because of this,
I created you...
In the bound of love,
I know how much I,
I needed you here...

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Thursday, 26 March 2015

Shattered Dreams - A Beginning of Another Story...


          At a new era of the year 2030, the world at that time was developing rapidly. Everything was only used by the technology to proceed with a life that was exchanging every day time passed. No one ever used anymore pen and paper to write a note in their life anymore, but there was still a man who is trapped in his dark and emotionless cruel life of his own…
            Shoichi Oshiro is a man in his previous life that was well respected, full of integrity, have faith in his life or any other human that was living along side of him, but there was a mystery that lies within his sorrow life that no one else would see. He was a property seller at his own  real estate company, Oshiro Industry, in Tokyo, Japan. He lived his life well as he had predicted it to be until one day, his dream was shattered into only repulsive dreams.
            He opened his eyes when he heard somebody knocked on the still caged inside the prison he was living right now. He looked at the man who was wearing his daily suit that put the food that he got no more interest to be eating at the side of the door that was closed a while ago. “Eat your meal!” that person said to him as he locked the prison he was held inside. Shoichi groaned as he tried to ignored what the person said to him, “Fine.” he replied that man as he changes his gesture on the piece of thin mattress he was laying on.
            Shoichi took a deep breath as he sealed his eyes once again, ‘This is life…’ he grumbled in his heart. He was held inside there before a few more weeks. No. Days for him to be stance to his death for the guilt that he had done. There were regrets felt in his own heart, with the vengeance that he had previously was still left hidden some part of his emotion. How he wished that he still weren’t caught with the act that he seemed to be enjoying indulged in his life. He inhaled a deep breath as he still could remember the fragrance of those women he had previously in his life even if it was only for a short time. It was only a while in his file.
            He cherishes all their living in his life, but as for what they had done to his trust and integrity to them, it had somehow grimace his heart to believe in any of them anymore. Shoichi snorted slightly when a shallow smiled came across his lips, “Women…” he grumbled as he balled his fist to let his anger perish through thin air as he can no longer do anything anymore. Perhaps it was a right decision to be done against them.
            Somebody knocked on the steel that was capturing him once again as he turned his glance towards them, grimly.
            “Eat your food! We won’t waste our time to wait for you!” the same man previously said to him arrogantly. Shoichi gritted his teeth together and how he felt in his heart to take that man’s life away.
            Reluctantly, he pushed himself up and narrowed his eyebrow when he see the same ‘dish’ that he had almost every day was given to him again. He groaned as he felt how his stomach was grumbling, but he can no more eat them. “I’m full,” he said to that man and pushed the meal with his hand to the steel door once again. Shoichi cracked those bones on his fingers as he took a deep breath before he lay back down on the mattress and sealed his eyes once again.
            Nothing in his life anymore was surprising him. As before the justice against his fate, life and destiny be undeniable tied up together, he just want to remember everything that happened previously once again. He felt his heart palpitates slowly as the dull surrounding of his dimmed into night fall as his imagination came back floating in his mind.
            “Let’s just enjoy living life before it ends…” he said alone before everything falls back down upon him once again as the smile of a woman he once love appeared in front of his sight.
            Shoichi sighed, “Asami Mori…” he said her name…

- the story just came to my mind.. IDK if I should finish it or not.. :) 

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Wednesday, 18 March 2015

Equation 111 : We Are

Each times,
While we are still breathing,
How painful it is to be living in a life,
Full of lies,
False modesty,
And faith with no integrity.

Each whilst,
While we are still standing,
How rigid it is to be living in a life,
Through a smile,
Hidden apart from a heart,
That was shattered apart.

Each minute,
While we are still trying to survive,
How aching it is to be living in a life,
Behind those tears,
That had been fallen all these times,
Sheds on a cold solid ground.

Each second,
While we are still trying to pin a smile,
How wounded is it to be living in a life,
With humanity that still doesn’t understand how,
How actually is to endure those pain, and suffer,
Through a life that is unforgiving.

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Thursday, 5 March 2015

Equation 110 : Impurity of a Heart II

It was until today, I can no longer resist the pain,
The sorrow that holds my heart,
With those withered tears falling apart,
Truth, Lies, Desire, The purity of your love,
Tangled in a life, As at the end form a single knot.
Will there be a chance for me to be breathing,
Through the shadow of your love that have lost,
Forbidden within the impurity of your love,
It faded like cold breeze erasing a blunder.
As what I thought I craved the most,
In a life that left none anymore,
I am left only with your memories,
The memories I long to remain,
In a life, For eternity.

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Equation 109 : Fairy Tale

“As life has believed,
The fairy tale has been written,
A love memories was there broken,
Through a destiny was so long distance,
I was lost in dream, of you and me.

How a heart that have been denying,
Within the affection that was given,
Your love was always there,
Through the darkest dream of hopelessness,
That was meant for me, only me...”
(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Wednesday, 4 March 2015

Equation 108 : Bound . History

Where there will be love, 
there’s always an impurity.
Where there will be hate, 
there’s always be another lies within.
Where there will be truth, 
would it be any integrity,
Where there was a History,
With life that is still Bound,
Be an Unforgiving Mystery?

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Tuesday, 3 March 2015

Equation 107 : a Life to Obtain.

As the time has passed,
Right at this hour,
Each second has dismissed,
Everyone in this world,
Had fallen asleep,
Living their life through lies,
Through those pain,
And misery that has happened previously,
How they all wished it would vanish,
Perish or perhaps might not happen again.

As all the humanity had fallen to sleep,
Easing away their life that occurred too much,
Evenly hateful tragedies,
Sweet loving memories,
I am still here breathing,
Even if I can’t pass through your life, fate or destiny,
I am still here living my life,
It was nevertheless full of contradict,
A life as equal as you,
With the love you has never given to me,
Only left a ruthless heart that were meant to give.

Hoping and wishing that there would be,
Another chance for me to be living again,
In a life with no misery,
Was it even as contra as it could be,
In a life that weren’t meant to be,
Faith that were never predict anything,
It is only in a matter of life,
The trust we have put in this world,
The impurity raking through trust,
Dividing our unity that we stand,
Can our world unite together again,
Through a life that has no respect and no more dignity,
We shall not complain, just only to obtain.

(c) Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015

Sunday, 1 March 2015

This is my life.

  In this world we are living in, all of us are praying and wishing that every day that we live would pass by peacefully and only end with success. Everyone wants to live a happy life and be with a happy family until the end of their life, but eventually not all of us are predict to have what we wanted to be as perfect as everybody else.
  As for me, at times when I start to think on my own, it is delightful when people see at how I can do my daily routine like a normal people do... I am happy myself that I am capable to help my mom that has giving my life to be breathing in for almost 26 years, but sometimes, it’s slightly sad when people don’t really see that I am actually crying because of who I am now.
  I already tired of giving up my life since I was 18 years old. How every day I wake up before and wishing that I am not living anymore, but I know that He is giving me a new life to be breathing in. Each day I wake up in my life it was like a misery I have to face alone. Everybody said that there nothing is wrong with me, but if I can’t walk properly anymore, or even stand straight still for some time, they might just think that I am only making up things because I am lazy anymore.
  Was it still a pity to myself if I am standing on my own on a busy road and I am not sure if I could make it pass the road? Is it even guilt if I ask for someone to take my hand and guide my way because I c can’t really see no more?
  Perhaps destiny that is written for us isn’t always a happy ending for everyone in this whole life. Even if one day I can’t no longer see anymore,  I still have to believe in myself and be strong for me to move on with my life even if I am left on my own.  I still have to smile and eve if I cannot see anymore, I would still remember the voices of the person that care for me, that i care for them the most in my life. Though He had taken away what was precious in everyone’s life, but He had given me something else to replace what isn’t there for me anymore.
  Happiness in life is what I pray for the most that that is what I needed the most. Even if I am not the person who I was before, God had met me with people who care for me in my life and I am thankful for them for being there right by my side.
  I have multiple sclerosis and I might not know what will happen next, but I will keep on smiling and move on with my life. Even if one day I will be blind or won’t be able to move anymore, I won’t give up and I will achieve what I want to become.

Sweet love,
Kytty Sakuraiba / Scarlet Storm 2015.