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The light of dawn was striking slightly through the window from the hall way she was walking on her own. The sound surrounds her by time was solemn, so quiet, she couldn’t even be blinking her eyes even for a second, she adjust the position of her sling bag across her shoulder.
She stopped for a few second, looking at the outside world from afar, she had a short sigh. How she was wishing that if only she could just not walk any longer for the rest of the day, gritting her teeth against each other, she looked away from the light that was glimmering before the sky turns dark once again, she holds herself together, warming her own skin against her still cold palm, she continues her steps ahead,
What’s wrong with you? She asked herself, rubbing her palm on her semi dark blue jeans, she stopped in front of a row of locker, and made her wonder for a little while, which one is hers anyway. It seemed like everything is just the same. No differences, everything seems to be floating on the thin air, when it was actually there on the still ground.
She touched one that doesn’t belong to her since it seemed like none of it was was actually there, when she spotted a semi glimmer sign on one of the locker.
Star, she whispered to herself, as she walks towards it, she smiled a little, touching that sticker on it,
“You never change, J,” she said, recalling back when he pasted it there,
**
He walked towards her locker that was in front of his, he looked at her,
“You know what, Yuki,” he said, taking out something from his back pocket, he turned around and looked at her blank face,
“I don’t know what,” she replied him, giving him a little smile after a while, she blinked her eyes repeatedly, “Tell me, tell me?” she asked him, pleading him not to keep it a secret from her, he just gave her a long smirk, as she was trying to figure out what he was thinking about, when suddenly, he touched the tip of her nose,
“Don’t think too much,” he told her, pinching it a little, she gave him an irritating scowl,
“Ouch,” she groaned, rubbing it a little bit, trying to ease the pain away, he smiled to her, while pasting something on her locker.
She looked at it,
“What is this?” she asked, when he messed up her beautiful long brown hair, she looked at him, “Hey!” pushing his hand away, he pointed at the sticker there, “Memories of MJ,” he said what was written there.
He did bit the sticker on Ebay, regarding on the late Michael Jackson, even though the price isn’t that cheap, but he would be happy if it’s for her
“Memories of Michael Jackson?” she asked him, looking at him oddly, but he pushed her shoulder gently,
“No,” he said, somehow felt his heart flipped several of times, he frowned to her, crossing his arms on his chest, she did the same thing,
“What?” she asked him, when he looked at the sticker,
“Memories of MJ,” he said, trying to describe how precious that line means, he smiled on his own, but still leaving her blank for a few moments, she run her fingers through her hair, rearranging the mess he caused a while ago, she shakes her head, “I still don’t get you,” she said, he put one of his hand on his chin, as he leaned closer to her, he caress her cheek slightly, she opens her eyes and looked at him,
“Memories of Miyuki, Jun,” he said, when she let out a sigh of relief, she gave him a little smile, “Oh my, J!” she said, holding his hands, but he looked away, “I know I shouldn't waste my money buying th…” but before he could finished his line, he felt her suddenly touched his cheek against her soft pink lips,
he looked at her, as she gave her the most friendliest smile across her face,
“Thank you, J,” she said, leaving him blank for this time,
:What?” he asked her, when she kissed his cheek again,
“Thank you for buying this for me,” she said, touching the sticker, how her heart felt just so delighted at that time, he wrapped both of her arms around him,
“I love you so, so, so, much J!” she told him, thinking that he is the greatest friend she ever hand in her life, how she hope their friendship won’t ever shattered apart, he looked at her confusingly,
She got to be joking me, he thought alone, when she let him go and smiled to him,
“Memories of U and Me,” she said, pointing to her locker and his in front of hers.
He did bought two of the sticker for both of their locker, so that whatever happens, even if they won’t be here again, that memories would still forever stays in their heart, he smiled to her,
“Yeah,” he said, patting her shoulders, with a small smile across his face,
“Forever you and me,” he said, resting his arms on one side of her shoulder, she gave him a small laughter,
**
Miyuki smile while touching it. Even though it has been quite sometimes, but the sticker was still in a perfect condition. She shakes her head a little bit,
,” she said his name softly, but the seemed like the echo was still heard since there was no one near by her any longer.
She looked at her silver Guess watch that her parents had given her on her 22nd birthday, it seemed like without her perceived on how quickly time had passed, it was already fifteen minutes to eight at that time.
Her pulse stopped for a jiffy, in a rush, she puts in the combination for the locker’s lock, but somehow, it wasn’t right for a few times she tries, she had a short sigh, putting the bag on her shoulder down on the ground, she turned around to see if there’s anyone there with her,
but she was there on her own.
She closed her eyes for a moment, trying to give herself courage to be there at least for a little more time,
she felt her heart race somehow,
I’m on my own…
she whispers, but after her hard tries, she finally heard what she had been wanting to hear, and with a sound of click, she opens the locker gradually, trying to avoid making too much sound, she puts all of the books she wanted to keep inside and took several that she wanted to take back home, but she accidently looked at the mirror inside her locker, that gave her a sudden fright, she accidently le all of the books she was holding go.
She leaned at the side of her locker, closing her eyes, she tries to hold herself together.
What was that?
she asked herself, since she did saw a reflection of another human behind her back, but she was sure that she was there all by herself, not with anyone else.
She took a deep breath,
Maybe it's just my own imagination,
she told herself over and over again, she turned to the side and looked behind once again, bending down and she started to picked up everything that has fallen just now. She took a deep breath before even thought of looking at her locket again, since she was afraid to even have a short gaze towards the purple framed mirror, she felt herself started to shivered down her spine,
"There's nothing, Yuki," she told herself, and after a long sigh, she slowly stood back up, tries so hard to avoid, but her own reflection made her realize that she was only dreaming.She closed her eyes for a few moment, trying to erase everything that she thought was real, she took a deep breath, rubbing her chest for a few times, she opens her eyes slowly,
You're silly, girl, she told herself, she had a little laughter as she started to arrange everything inside the locker before she takes her leave..
**
After sometimes had passed, after the brightest sky had turned to the semi darkest night, it seemed like the temperature outside isn’t at its actual glaze at that season of the year, the nature outside seemed to be at its own solitary life, the wind was still blowing in a semi suave manner, a young man inside a house grumbled to himself,
“Why is it so cold,” he said, scratching his hand through his dark brown hair, he tries to opens his eyes, but how he was wishing that he wouldn’t be up at that time of the hour.
He heard someone knocks on his bedroom door,
“Honey” he heard someone calling for him, he grumbled unpleasantly, feeling chills running down his spine, he pulled his gray blanket up again, he was hoping so bad he wouldn’t have to be bothered anymore,
but the other person still knocks on the door outside his room,
“Honey,”
he heard it once again. He had a long sigh, feeling how hard his heart was protesting from getting up, but he knows no one would disturb him unless it was a major disaster, but sometimes, people in the house could be irritates anyway. Why would he even care? “What?” he asked the person outside, but seemed like his voice was too mellow, even a person close to him couldn’t even hear what he was saying, the door knocks again, aggressively, he pushed the blanked to the side, he opened his eyes a little wider,
“What?!” he raised up his tempo a bit, but it seemed like the person outside was leaning against his door, in hope that he would come out as soon as he heard her, feeling irritates with her not stopping with her distressing bang on his wooden bedroom door, he pushed himself up from semi large size bed and walked towards the door, he closed his eyes for a bit as he walked passed by his study table and took his soft brown coloured t-shirt that he wore previously that was hanging on the chair, and outs it on.
He opens the door looking as awful as he could around eight thirty at night, with his messy hair, and his shirt worn inside out, he looked at whoever that couldn’t just stop disturbing his life. He had a long blank gaze at the girl who was standing in front of him, wearing her pink short and a purple top, she frowned looking at him worse than he could ever be at this time of the night.
She frowned to him, “Honey!” she shouted, to him, shaking his shoulder to wake him up, he closed one side of his eyes, trying to focus who was he looking at though his head was somewhere else at the other junction of his own fantasy.
“Matsuda Jun!!” she screamed once again, trying to wake him up, then he just nodded his head several times, “Yeah,” he said, was still dozed off, his little sister frowned when she just slapped his face a few times with both of her palm,
“Matsuda Jun! Wake up this instant!!!” she said, but after a few times slapping his face, hegrabbed both of her hand and looked at her directly into her eyes,
Jumiko Matsuda, his little sister, the only realitive he have.. Aged seventeen, fun most of the time, but the rest of it gets on his nerves most of the times.
He leaned at the sie of his door, raising oneside of his eyebrows up, he lifed his hands to greet her,
“What’s up?” he asked her when she opened her mouth wide, placing both side of herarms at the side of his waist, disbelieved with what he just said, how she wishes that she would kill him right there, he lifted his shoulders up, “Okay then,” he said, turning around to walked back inside his room, but she grabbed his t-shirt before he could even closed the door, “Do you know something, honey?” she asked him, but he lifted his shoulders up once again, scratching his head, he looked at her
. Most of the time people might misunderstood wih them calling each other, but for him, the love he ever gave to her, she’s the most priceless thing he could ever wish for and he was glad that she was still there with him after the terrible accident that had happened with their parents when both of them were still young, when he was still sixteen and with some help from his parents saving and his part time jobs, he manage to raise her up alone.
He looked at her helplessly, he moved his position a little bit and rest his arms on her shoulder, he punched her jaw lightly,
“Tell me what’s wrong?” he asked her, when she pushed his hands away gently, not feeling satisfied for what he had done, she turns around, not wanting to face him. He had a short sigh and wrapped his arms around her waist, “Come on, Fumi,” he said, resting his chin on her shoulder, she shakes her head for a few times, “I went to Yuki’s house just now,” she told him when he just had a short laughter, since he knows that his sister always needs a woman’s help and she always go to Yuki to asked her almost everything
Fashion? Boys? Just name it.
He smiled to her, pinching her cheek,
“And how am I supposed to help you with that?” he asked her, when she turned around to face him again,
“She’s not home,” she told him. He just patted her shoulder, “And is there anything that I can assist you with?” he asked her, but she just looked at him, she tapped her chin for a few times, “It’s not that,” she paused for a second, rubbing her own shoulder, she looked away from him, “but,” she said but he just smiled to her, “But what?” he asked, taking the lollipop that she was holding, she looked at him, and took a deep breath, and closed her eyes, He’s always like that, he’s just like that, she told herself, to remind her that even though how much she wishes him dead, but he’s her only brother anyway, she bit her lips a little, looking at him sucking on that strawberry candy tht she have left, Jun walked inside his bedroom, he turned around, looking at her,
“You want some?” offering the candy, but she just shakes her head, “Ew, no,” she told him, as he just smiled to her, “Okay,” he said, but you see, it’s a little,” she said, but before she could even finished her line, Jun walked closer to her again, disturbing what she was trying to tell him, she groaned a bit,
“Oh, come on, honey,” she said to him, pushing his face away from her, she sat at the edge of his bed. Somehow she was quite impressed that even though for a man, this guy can surely keep himself clean most of the time. She patted his sheets a little bit, “So, tell me,” he asked her, disturbing the nice thought she had about him a while ago, she took one of his pillow, and holds it close against her, “Yuki’s not home,” she told him, with a very sad face across her face, he had a short sigh, he gave her a smll smile across his lips,
he understands that in some certain matter, him as a brother is mostly helpful in his sister’s life, but when it comes to woman, he was ure that other women would understand them better than a man. Even though how hard he tries to be the best, but some matters isn’t on his behalf to settle. He walked closer to her,
“Maybe she’s out with her friends?” he said but she just shakes her head,
“That’s impossible,” she told him, but he only raised his eyebrow, “Eh? What do you mean?” he asked her. Jumiko walked to the other side of the room, she touched the end of the window she was standing next to, feeling the cold breee waved inside, she closed her eyes for a moment before continue what she wanted to tell him,
“You see, honey,” she said, when he just nodded his head,
“Yeah?” he replied her, she cross both of her arms on her chest,
“She never forgets to turned on the porch light even if she wanted to go out without you,” she pointed that out, she points her fingers out for a few second, but he just gave her a short laugh, “She might forgets about it,” he replied her, but she just groaned to him, thinking that even though how intimately close both of them are to each other, there’s still something that she really wants she couldn’t get it clear.
“I’m sure she’s out with her friends,” he told her as he walked passed by her to get the notes on the study desk behind her but she frowned to him,
“But Jun,” she looked at him, whining her cold heart, she looked down, feeling sad that he’s not listening to what she was trying to tell him, it seemed like he was too busy flipping on pages rather than bothering with what she was trying to say, she felt her heart began to heart up tremendously, she grumbled,
“I went to her house and she was not there,” she told him and walked towards the door, she touched the edge of the opened surface,
“Perhaps someone forgot to pick me up,” she told him with a smile, somehow had made his pulse stopped for a few moment, he looked at her who was walking out from the door, he tried to think back at what had happened to him actually on that day,
**
Manami looked at him with a similar face reactioin she always given him, she lifted her shoulder as if she doesn’t really bother if he would agree or disagree with what she wanted to tell him,
“Listen to me, Jun,” she said, while flicking her fingers through the notes she was reading, she looked at his face that somehow was in his own confusion, she bit her lips inquiring what was wrong with him at the first place, but they did told each other before that even though how cloe their friendship was, they would try not to get intimately close with each other anyhow.
It’s not that they never like each other, but both of them had tried to be aside one another, echanging love or emotion, but it seemed like none of it work in between them. They still talk regularly, she tried to give him love, but in the end, the only thing that worked out between the two of them was just a mid night crash at somewhere they are not even sure where, she had a small smile across her face,
You and I, we’re only lying if we say we love each other, Jun,” she told herself, when she scribbled down on the paper in front of her eyes, she always tries to avoid is gaze but how can she disobey her own heart? She closed her eyes for a moment, as she ran her fingers through the end of her beautiful long hair that glimmer against the light that shines down across the sky,
She heard him let out a long sigh that even she was not sure for what reason, she just looked at him, “I think you should try this,” she told him again, but he only laughed when she told him that, she just took the candy from her pocket, putting one inside her mouth, trying so hard to avoid how much she feel like strangling him at that time, but he just smiled to her,
“You know that I don’t do acting anymore,” he told her, without any sign of wanting to argue, he felt a little eccentric with how his behavior changed in a sudden flash, she bit her fingers a little bit,she really wants to know what is going on exactly with this guy.She knows that he always have been the happy go luck person, who’s never uptight with anything that he wanted to do, he don’t even care much if you’re late on your night time out,
he never really bothers about anything, but something is surely not right, and usually when a man change tragically three hundred and sixty degree, it always, she closed her eyes for a moment, trying to distract herself fro thinking at that way, but what else can she say if it’s the actual issue anyway?
She took a deep breath,
A woman can make you change, Jun, she whispered in her heart but still was hidden behind a friendly smile she always gave to everyone she knows, she rubs her shoulder for a few times, she looked at him again,
he touched her shoulder gently,
“You know that I don’t do acting anymore?” he told her, when she just nodded her head, remembering the reason why it all become like this in his life.
Back then when he was in early middle school, he did got stubborn with his father andkeep on telling him that he can’t be able to go to their road trip because he have a play that he can’t resign at the last minute, she remembered everything at that time because she was there with him, even though just behind her own shadows, but she saw everything.
Their quarrel lasted the whole evening, but said to them that he’ll be taking his little sister Jumiko back from school later in that evening since he wont be going to his father’s so call army presentation. He wasn’t a big fan in all of those matter because he knows that whatever happen, his heart and his father would never give and take against each other, how can would a both of them obliges their own ego against one another?
He did an amazing job during that Midsummer Night Dream’s musical stage play, somehow he didn’t even won the best actor award for that play. How he was feeling glorious with he had achieved, he was too excited to go back home to tell his father that he can do what he wanted to do, but how can he ever forgets when he reached back home, one of his neighbor approached him to tell him that they were sorry with what had happened to his family.
How he was confused at that time, he just looked at everyone around him, and with Jumiko crying on his shoulder, he was speechless he don’t know what other thing that he can ever possibly do, but just accept the actual fact they his family is no longer there, no longer with him and his little sister anymore.
He closed his eyes for a long time, and how Manami wishes that he could be there for him, but eve she was terrified with what had happened to his family, she said behind, giving him excuses that he couldn’t make it in time.
Manami closed her eyes for awhile, giving him a gentle smile, she patted his shoulder, “Miyuki would be the lead character and they are needing the Romeo,” she told him, with a small giggle, hewiden his eyes a little bit,
“What?” he asked her, when she just nodded her head,
“Yeah, Romeo quits for some reason and now Juliet is in search for her only long lost love,” she rubs her chin several times, she looked at him with a teasing smile across her face,
“And you don’t want to try?” she asked him again,
**
He opened his eyes wider,
“And I said I’ll be back around six to pick her up!” he felt his heart had a sudden shock, when he rushed towards the mirror and looked at his own face.
He ran his fingers through his hair, trying to fixed a terrible messed he feel like punching himself at that time, how could he ever forget to do things that he had been doing for almost years! How could he would even forget to pick her up. The most easiest thing ever, he closed his eyes for a moment,
Keiko, he said, remembering what she had given him before he sent her back home, he got to make a note in mind that not to accept anything from someone you called an ex lover.
He took off his shirt that he wore inside out, putting it on properly, he took the key on the table close to him and ran outside his room when he accidently ran against his sister, she just looked at him,
“And where are you going?” she asked him, when he pushed her aside,
“I forgot to pick her up!” he told his little sister as he rush towards the front door, he opens it up, unlocks his car even though it was still far enough for him to reach it, he get inside the car, started the engine and drove away as fast as he could
Jumiko looked from inside the house, and mumbled alone,
“And that’s why sometimes they can be really forgetful,” she said, drinking th hot chocolate in thshe was holding in her hand and walked away from the living room
**
She fell silent once again, when she felt a sudden gust of wind blowing past by her in a locked room, without any window that was opened, she felt her heart stopped beating for a few while, but somehow was pounding only God knows how.
She had a gulp, feeling the eerie sense began to linger down her throat, moving slow down her neck, chilling down her spine, she opened her eyes wide in a very dark cold hall way, she felt like she wanted to run away, but her fee doesn’t even manage to move even a single muscle, he only thing she was able to do was only stand still, be as stiff as a tower, she tries to hold herself together, thinking of someone who would come and have her, that somehow, she portrays a man whom with a splendor might of mighty warrior, but who would be there with her apart from her own pitiful fright that was yearning for aid that she knows she couldn’t possibly get,
she took a deep breath, as she slowly moved her one side of her foot in an opposite direction, how she felt her weight doubled her regular self, somehow tormented her heart to even move faster, she closed her eyes,
You're on your own, Yuki, she kept on repeating the same thing over and over again, she felt the rough wind blew passed by her one more time. She looked to the side, trying to regained her strong courage, grasping her fist tighter, she felt herself biting her lips harder, blood flows from the scar she had made to herself slightly, she felt tears began to hide behind her eyes, she asked,
"What do you want from me?" but somehow her voice wasn't even heard from a distance second, but she felt someone holding her close from behind her back, she felt his breath against her bare cold neck, she tries so hard to break free from his grip, but how was that possible to do. His strength was surely double than hers, she strugled herself to break loose from his grasp,
"Let me go!!" she screamed, but still nothing was heard, she used all of the force she got in herself to pushed away what was holding her close, she turnd around and manage to escape from the tormented sentiment that she was feeling, she ran as fast as she could possibly go though the darkest hall way, suddenly she recalled back everything that happened to her today.
She closed her eyes, feeling her tears slowly lingers down her soft cheek, she remembered his beautiful gaze how he looked at her previously,
“Sho,” she whispered his name softly,
“Yuki,” he called for her in the previous time, she looked at him, wondering wh would he even care to talk to her, her heard shrinked in an instant time, she looked at him, trying to say something but eventually, he didn’t even hear her answer him in reply.
She coughed for a few times, giving him a friendly smile, “I’m sorry,” she told him, trying to cover up her shame, she took a deep breath before exchanging her gaze towards his face, she smiled to him again, “Sudden cough,” she said, he gave her a small laughter, and smiled to her.
Somehow, there, their eyes met one another,
Why am I feeling like this? she questioned herself thousands of times, but she only manage to give him a smile.
Anyway how she tried her hard not to think about him being there in front of her eyes, how his body odor that was astoundingly mesmorizing almost everyone who were there, she felt him touching the tip of her finger abruptly, he smiled to her,
“So, Yuki,” he called for her again, when shenodded her head fr a few times, “Yeah?” she replied him at last, he released his fingers that was holding her, he took a deep breath, as he was trying to figure out what was going through her heart, the only emotion he felt of her was just puzzled and full of question.
He touched his fingers against his fair, yet just too soft perhaps bare neck, even though it was only for a while but why does she felt like it was a very long time? Why does it felt like each second splits to two more half, anything that could happen within a minute lastest for too long in her own time, her eyes widen without her noticing anything, he rubs his hand on his shoulder, revealsing hs bare collar bone, she had a short gulp,
“What is it, Sho?” she asked him, trying to wake up from her desperately dreadful dream, she tries to make a conversation with him, he looked at her, how she wondered when will it be the end of nerve wrecking moment every time she was there with him?
Her sudden lack of enthusiasm somehow surprised herself, though how she know she was never like that. Never was in this kind of situation, is it true with what they said anyway? When time comes, you’d feel like this without any do or say?
He roamed around her eyes that was flicking against the light in front of her beautiful sight, he looked to the side just in case he was a little impolite to look at her for too long time, or perhaps making her heart at its not so pleasurable situation, he wouldn’t want her to feel unpleasant with him being there next to her, he rubs his jaw with his point finger for a second,
“Want to catch a ride home?” he finally asked her with a smile across his lips, but somehow gotten her a little edgy, she looked to the side, trying to give him a smile, she felt her esophagus shrunken instantaneously, it took her a little while to try gasping some air to breathe, she closed her eyes for bit,
Is he asking me out or something? Her thought popped out instantly, but she manages to shakes her head, refusing his offer, she looked at him at the end, “Maybe not,” she told him.
“I got some other things to do after class,” she replied him, as he nodded his head understanding what she just said to him, “Well, I guess, I’ll see you tomorrow?” he told her, when she nodded her head in replies,
“That wouldn’t be a bad idea,” she manage to reply him again. Even though how ridiculous she sounded like, she was satisfied with her standing there alone, to face the guy that kept on being there in her dreams. She took a deep breath, “I’ll see you tomorrow?” she said, offering a handshake to him, as he accept it,
“You take care,” he replies, as she felt him grasping her palm against his gentle skin, she nodded again,
Why did I offer him a handshake?! That’s not even gentle for a woman to do things like that!! But it would be strange if I suddenly…
her thought paused for a moment as she looked at him turning around, picking up his bag from the chair next to him, he sling it on his shoulder.
She blinks her eyes for a few times without him even notice. She felt her breath changed at that time, she looked at the sweats that was rolling down slightly behind his neck, she gently bit her finger as her mind started to doze off to some other dimension,
Sunohara Sho,
she whispers in her heart,
“Miyuki?”
She heard someone calling for her,
“Yeah?”
“I’ll see you tomorrow,”
“Okay,” she replied without even know what was going on, he smiled to her as he walked passed by her and left the room.
She looked at herself in the makeup mirror in front of her eyes,
What the hell just happened?
she asked herself.
She wiped the tears that was falling down from her eyes,
“I’ve should have said yes,” she told herself, thinking about his offer to send her back home>
**
Inside the car, the time was already approaching twenty minutes till nine at night, even though the weather outside wasn't as warm like it usually was, Jun felt sweats started to lingers down behind his back. How his heart wasn't at it's peaceful second, he rubs his eyes a couple of times, trying to prevent him to be too distressed with what was going on, though how he knows it's impossible for him to even be thinking straight enough at that time, he closed his eyes for a second and took a deep breath in,
"I'm really sorry, Yuki," he whispered himself, because he was the one who made a promise to her never to bailed her out for whatever might happen in this world, he would always be there for her. Even though it was his first, or maybe second time he didn't manage to picked her up because he fell asleep, but the guilt he felt deep in his soul began to piled up as each second passed by the time.
Suddenly, he heard a loud honk from front, as he spontaniously opened his eyes, the glare from the bright light in front of him, somehow stunned him for a few times,turning his steering toward the left side, avoiding a large truck that was coming straight in front of his eyes,
he took the deepest sigh of relief. He couldn't believe that he was still there, he couldn't believe that he was still alive.
"My goodness, Jun," he whimpered to himself, slowly as he tries to calm himself down from that frightening he faced a while ago, he leaned back on the driver's seat, with both of his palm touching his sweating face, somehow he realize something that he didn't even see it was visible in his heart,
How can I live without you, he whispers alone, but pausing his thought for a moment, he looked to the side at the road that isn't as busy it was during the day time, he leaned close down the steering in front of him,
Who would have take care of her if i ever, he thought again, thinking about the accident that could , but did not happened, he moved his hands toward the car key at the sid, turning off the engine for a little while, he closed his eyes for a few moment, trying to release his stress, he felt the phone in his pocket started to vibrates.
He took his mobile phone out, looking at the caller's name, winced before he pressed the picked up call button on the screen,
"Hello?" he answered,
**
She paused for a moment, gasping some air to breathe, but she heard the foot steps are getting much closer to her, she tries her best to continue her escape,
"Don't kill me!" she shrieked. But the shadows she saw on the ground doesn't seemed to care about anything at all, he gets much closer to her each second passed by, but suddenly, she ran againts a person, something in front of her by accident.
Her heart stopped at that second. She opened her eyes wide, but the dark hall way was giving her a puzzle expression of who might be in front of her eyes. She tries to get a glips of him, but how can she ever do.
She gripped her fist tighter, feeling so down and despair, maybe she;s not prepared for anything at all, but if this is it, what other thing can she possibly do, she took a last breath in, she was ready to face anything that will happen there.
Everything went silent around her as she felt the person in front of her hold one side of her arm, "Yuki," she heard him calling for his name, she slowly moves her head up, trying to recognize his voice, it seemed like she had heard it somewhere, but how could it even be that person, but she couldn't recall anyone.
Who is this person, she wondered,
She closed her eyes tighter, "Who is this?" she managed to asked him, she felt his pulse beats lightly, with his warmth calms her down, she really wants to know who was the person holding her close in his arms, she felt herself wrapping her arms around him slightly in return,
"Who are you?" she asked him again, somehow felt save being there with him, she felt his breath breathing close to her ear,
"It's me, Sho," he replied her.
"Sho?"
"Yes, I'm Sho,"
How her heart was at it's tense relief when she knows the person that was holding her was him, "Sho," she whispered his name, as she hold him closer in her arms,
"Yuki," he called for her name again, wrapping both of his arms around her, he felt her tears still dropping down from her eyes, he let out a sigh of relief that she was still alright, "What's the matter, Yuki," he said to her, she just shakes her head with her face buried on his shoulder, he caress her hair lightly, she nodded his head with a small smile across his face,
"I'll take you back home first," he told her, leading her the way out from that place, he felt the anger started to boiled up in his heart,
What the hell are you trying to do, Masaki, he thought on his own, as he walked toward the exit of the building.
**
He hard the hardest laughter,
"You're so stupid," he said, putting the bottle of vodka down on the table, wearing only his black short, he ran his finger through his hair,
"I never thought you'd be this stupid," he said, with a smile across his face, when he felt someone holding him close behind his back, as he looked to his side,
"Honey," he heard her whispered his name, when he touched the side of her cheek, giving her a kiss on her lips, he smiled to her,
"Yes, Naomi, baby," he called for her name, looking at her fully ready for her work, he gently caress her hair, leaning close as he breathe nearby her ear, she pulled him closer to her body, knowing how much in her heart she wants him, she felt him kissing her cheek a little,
"Do you have to ho?" he asked her. She nodded her head, "I got work, baby," she told him, when he looked at her deeply into her eyes, he felt his heart started to roared how much he wanted her at that time, his breathing wasn't certain with whatever was going to happen, he licked her neck, sensing her odour, before he let her off him, "I'll be back early," she told him, giving him the long kiss that he always been craving for, she opens the front door of her house,
"I'll see you later tonight," she told him, when he made a puppy eyes to her,
"Promise?"
"Promise,"
He looked at her leaving the house after their last kiss, he turned around as she drove her car away from there, he smiled a little,
"Why are you so stupid, Sho," he said, taking the vodka bottle again, walking toward her room, as he gets inside.
The light of dawn was striking slightly through the window from the hall way she was walking on her own. The sound surrounds her by time was solemn, so quiet, she couldn’t even be blinking her eyes even for a second, she adjust the position of her sling bag across her shoulder.
She stopped for a few second, looking at the outside world from afar, she had a short sigh. How she was wishing that if only she could just not walk any longer for the rest of the day, gritting her teeth against each other, she looked away from the light that was glimmering before the sky turns dark once again, she holds herself together, warming her own skin against her still cold palm, she continues her steps ahead,
What’s wrong with you? She asked herself, rubbing her palm on her semi dark blue jeans, she stopped in front of a row of locker, and made her wonder for a little while, which one is hers anyway. It seemed like everything is just the same. No differences, everything seems to be floating on the thin air, when it was actually there on the still ground.
She touched one that doesn’t belong to her since it seemed like none of it was was actually there, when she spotted a semi glimmer sign on one of the locker.
Star, she whispered to herself, as she walks towards it, she smiled a little, touching that sticker on it,
“You never change, J,” she said, recalling back when he pasted it there,
**
He walked towards her locker that was in front of his, he looked at her,
“You know what, Yuki,” he said, taking out something from his back pocket, he turned around and looked at her blank face,
“I don’t know what,” she replied him, giving him a little smile after a while, she blinked her eyes repeatedly, “Tell me, tell me?” she asked him, pleading him not to keep it a secret from her, he just gave her a long smirk, as she was trying to figure out what he was thinking about, when suddenly, he touched the tip of her nose,
“Don’t think too much,” he told her, pinching it a little, she gave him an irritating scowl,
“Ouch,” she groaned, rubbing it a little bit, trying to ease the pain away, he smiled to her, while pasting something on her locker.
She looked at it,
“What is this?” she asked, when he messed up her beautiful long brown hair, she looked at him, “Hey!” pushing his hand away, he pointed at the sticker there, “Memories of MJ,” he said what was written there.
He did bit the sticker on Ebay, regarding on the late Michael Jackson, even though the price isn’t that cheap, but he would be happy if it’s for her
“Memories of Michael Jackson?” she asked him, looking at him oddly, but he pushed her shoulder gently,
“No,” he said, somehow felt his heart flipped several of times, he frowned to her, crossing his arms on his chest, she did the same thing,
“What?” she asked him, when he looked at the sticker,
“Memories of MJ,” he said, trying to describe how precious that line means, he smiled on his own, but still leaving her blank for a few moments, she run her fingers through her hair, rearranging the mess he caused a while ago, she shakes her head, “I still don’t get you,” she said, he put one of his hand on his chin, as he leaned closer to her, he caress her cheek slightly, she opens her eyes and looked at him,
“Memories of Miyuki, Jun,” he said, when she let out a sigh of relief, she gave him a little smile, “Oh my, J!” she said, holding his hands, but he looked away, “I know I shouldn't waste my money buying th…” but before he could finished his line, he felt her suddenly touched his cheek against her soft pink lips,
he looked at her, as she gave her the most friendliest smile across her face,
“Thank you, J,” she said, leaving him blank for this time,
:What?” he asked her, when she kissed his cheek again,
“Thank you for buying this for me,” she said, touching the sticker, how her heart felt just so delighted at that time, he wrapped both of her arms around him,
“I love you so, so, so, much J!” she told him, thinking that he is the greatest friend she ever hand in her life, how she hope their friendship won’t ever shattered apart, he looked at her confusingly,
She got to be joking me, he thought alone, when she let him go and smiled to him,
“Memories of U and Me,” she said, pointing to her locker and his in front of hers.
He did bought two of the sticker for both of their locker, so that whatever happens, even if they won’t be here again, that memories would still forever stays in their heart, he smiled to her,
“Yeah,” he said, patting her shoulders, with a small smile across his face,
“Forever you and me,” he said, resting his arms on one side of her shoulder, she gave him a small laughter,
**
Miyuki smile while touching it. Even though it has been quite sometimes, but the sticker was still in a perfect condition. She shakes her head a little bit,
,” she said his name softly, but the seemed like the echo was still heard since there was no one near by her any longer.
She looked at her silver Guess watch that her parents had given her on her 22nd birthday, it seemed like without her perceived on how quickly time had passed, it was already fifteen minutes to eight at that time.
Her pulse stopped for a jiffy, in a rush, she puts in the combination for the locker’s lock, but somehow, it wasn’t right for a few times she tries, she had a short sigh, putting the bag on her shoulder down on the ground, she turned around to see if there’s anyone there with her,
but she was there on her own.
She closed her eyes for a moment, trying to give herself courage to be there at least for a little more time,
she felt her heart race somehow,
I’m on my own…
she whispers, but after her hard tries, she finally heard what she had been wanting to hear, and with a sound of click, she opens the locker gradually, trying to avoid making too much sound, she puts all of the books she wanted to keep inside and took several that she wanted to take back home, but she accidently looked at the mirror inside her locker, that gave her a sudden fright, she accidently le all of the books she was holding go.
She leaned at the side of her locker, closing her eyes, she tries to hold herself together.
What was that?
she asked herself, since she did saw a reflection of another human behind her back, but she was sure that she was there all by herself, not with anyone else.
She took a deep breath,
Maybe it's just my own imagination,
she told herself over and over again, she turned to the side and looked behind once again, bending down and she started to picked up everything that has fallen just now. She took a deep breath before even thought of looking at her locket again, since she was afraid to even have a short gaze towards the purple framed mirror, she felt herself started to shivered down her spine,
"There's nothing, Yuki," she told herself, and after a long sigh, she slowly stood back up, tries so hard to avoid, but her own reflection made her realize that she was only dreaming.She closed her eyes for a few moment, trying to erase everything that she thought was real, she took a deep breath, rubbing her chest for a few times, she opens her eyes slowly,
You're silly, girl, she told herself, she had a little laughter as she started to arrange everything inside the locker before she takes her leave..
**
After sometimes had passed, after the brightest sky had turned to the semi darkest night, it seemed like the temperature outside isn’t at its actual glaze at that season of the year, the nature outside seemed to be at its own solitary life, the wind was still blowing in a semi suave manner, a young man inside a house grumbled to himself,
“Why is it so cold,” he said, scratching his hand through his dark brown hair, he tries to opens his eyes, but how he was wishing that he wouldn’t be up at that time of the hour.
He heard someone knocks on his bedroom door,
“Honey” he heard someone calling for him, he grumbled unpleasantly, feeling chills running down his spine, he pulled his gray blanket up again, he was hoping so bad he wouldn’t have to be bothered anymore,
but the other person still knocks on the door outside his room,
“Honey,”
he heard it once again. He had a long sigh, feeling how hard his heart was protesting from getting up, but he knows no one would disturb him unless it was a major disaster, but sometimes, people in the house could be irritates anyway. Why would he even care? “What?” he asked the person outside, but seemed like his voice was too mellow, even a person close to him couldn’t even hear what he was saying, the door knocks again, aggressively, he pushed the blanked to the side, he opened his eyes a little wider,
“What?!” he raised up his tempo a bit, but it seemed like the person outside was leaning against his door, in hope that he would come out as soon as he heard her, feeling irritates with her not stopping with her distressing bang on his wooden bedroom door, he pushed himself up from semi large size bed and walked towards the door, he closed his eyes for a bit as he walked passed by his study table and took his soft brown coloured t-shirt that he wore previously that was hanging on the chair, and outs it on.
He opens the door looking as awful as he could around eight thirty at night, with his messy hair, and his shirt worn inside out, he looked at whoever that couldn’t just stop disturbing his life. He had a long blank gaze at the girl who was standing in front of him, wearing her pink short and a purple top, she frowned looking at him worse than he could ever be at this time of the night.
She frowned to him, “Honey!” she shouted, to him, shaking his shoulder to wake him up, he closed one side of his eyes, trying to focus who was he looking at though his head was somewhere else at the other junction of his own fantasy.
“Matsuda Jun!!” she screamed once again, trying to wake him up, then he just nodded his head several times, “Yeah,” he said, was still dozed off, his little sister frowned when she just slapped his face a few times with both of her palm,
“Matsuda Jun! Wake up this instant!!!” she said, but after a few times slapping his face, hegrabbed both of her hand and looked at her directly into her eyes,
Jumiko Matsuda, his little sister, the only realitive he have.. Aged seventeen, fun most of the time, but the rest of it gets on his nerves most of the times.
He leaned at the sie of his door, raising oneside of his eyebrows up, he lifed his hands to greet her,
“What’s up?” he asked her when she opened her mouth wide, placing both side of herarms at the side of his waist, disbelieved with what he just said, how she wishes that she would kill him right there, he lifted his shoulders up, “Okay then,” he said, turning around to walked back inside his room, but she grabbed his t-shirt before he could even closed the door, “Do you know something, honey?” she asked him, but he lifted his shoulders up once again, scratching his head, he looked at her
. Most of the time people might misunderstood wih them calling each other, but for him, the love he ever gave to her, she’s the most priceless thing he could ever wish for and he was glad that she was still there with him after the terrible accident that had happened with their parents when both of them were still young, when he was still sixteen and with some help from his parents saving and his part time jobs, he manage to raise her up alone.
He looked at her helplessly, he moved his position a little bit and rest his arms on her shoulder, he punched her jaw lightly,
“Tell me what’s wrong?” he asked her, when she pushed his hands away gently, not feeling satisfied for what he had done, she turns around, not wanting to face him. He had a short sigh and wrapped his arms around her waist, “Come on, Fumi,” he said, resting his chin on her shoulder, she shakes her head for a few times, “I went to Yuki’s house just now,” she told him when he just had a short laughter, since he knows that his sister always needs a woman’s help and she always go to Yuki to asked her almost everything
Fashion? Boys? Just name it.
He smiled to her, pinching her cheek,
“And how am I supposed to help you with that?” he asked her, when she turned around to face him again,
“She’s not home,” she told him. He just patted her shoulder, “And is there anything that I can assist you with?” he asked her, but she just looked at him, she tapped her chin for a few times, “It’s not that,” she paused for a second, rubbing her own shoulder, she looked away from him, “but,” she said but he just smiled to her, “But what?” he asked, taking the lollipop that she was holding, she looked at him, and took a deep breath, and closed her eyes, He’s always like that, he’s just like that, she told herself, to remind her that even though how much she wishes him dead, but he’s her only brother anyway, she bit her lips a little, looking at him sucking on that strawberry candy tht she have left, Jun walked inside his bedroom, he turned around, looking at her,
“You want some?” offering the candy, but she just shakes her head, “Ew, no,” she told him, as he just smiled to her, “Okay,” he said, but you see, it’s a little,” she said, but before she could even finished her line, Jun walked closer to her again, disturbing what she was trying to tell him, she groaned a bit,
“Oh, come on, honey,” she said to him, pushing his face away from her, she sat at the edge of his bed. Somehow she was quite impressed that even though for a man, this guy can surely keep himself clean most of the time. She patted his sheets a little bit, “So, tell me,” he asked her, disturbing the nice thought she had about him a while ago, she took one of his pillow, and holds it close against her, “Yuki’s not home,” she told him, with a very sad face across her face, he had a short sigh, he gave her a smll smile across his lips,
he understands that in some certain matter, him as a brother is mostly helpful in his sister’s life, but when it comes to woman, he was ure that other women would understand them better than a man. Even though how hard he tries to be the best, but some matters isn’t on his behalf to settle. He walked closer to her,
“Maybe she’s out with her friends?” he said but she just shakes her head,
“That’s impossible,” she told him, but he only raised his eyebrow, “Eh? What do you mean?” he asked her. Jumiko walked to the other side of the room, she touched the end of the window she was standing next to, feeling the cold breee waved inside, she closed her eyes for a moment before continue what she wanted to tell him,
“You see, honey,” she said, when he just nodded his head,
“Yeah?” he replied her, she cross both of her arms on her chest,
“She never forgets to turned on the porch light even if she wanted to go out without you,” she pointed that out, she points her fingers out for a few second, but he just gave her a short laugh, “She might forgets about it,” he replied her, but she just groaned to him, thinking that even though how intimately close both of them are to each other, there’s still something that she really wants she couldn’t get it clear.
“I’m sure she’s out with her friends,” he told her as he walked passed by her to get the notes on the study desk behind her but she frowned to him,
“But Jun,” she looked at him, whining her cold heart, she looked down, feeling sad that he’s not listening to what she was trying to tell him, it seemed like he was too busy flipping on pages rather than bothering with what she was trying to say, she felt her heart began to heart up tremendously, she grumbled,
“I went to her house and she was not there,” she told him and walked towards the door, she touched the edge of the opened surface,
“Perhaps someone forgot to pick me up,” she told him with a smile, somehow had made his pulse stopped for a few moment, he looked at her who was walking out from the door, he tried to think back at what had happened to him actually on that day,
**
Manami looked at him with a similar face reactioin she always given him, she lifted her shoulder as if she doesn’t really bother if he would agree or disagree with what she wanted to tell him,
“Listen to me, Jun,” she said, while flicking her fingers through the notes she was reading, she looked at his face that somehow was in his own confusion, she bit her lips inquiring what was wrong with him at the first place, but they did told each other before that even though how cloe their friendship was, they would try not to get intimately close with each other anyhow.
It’s not that they never like each other, but both of them had tried to be aside one another, echanging love or emotion, but it seemed like none of it work in between them. They still talk regularly, she tried to give him love, but in the end, the only thing that worked out between the two of them was just a mid night crash at somewhere they are not even sure where, she had a small smile across her face,
You and I, we’re only lying if we say we love each other, Jun,” she told herself, when she scribbled down on the paper in front of her eyes, she always tries to avoid is gaze but how can she disobey her own heart? She closed her eyes for a moment, as she ran her fingers through the end of her beautiful long hair that glimmer against the light that shines down across the sky,
She heard him let out a long sigh that even she was not sure for what reason, she just looked at him, “I think you should try this,” she told him again, but he only laughed when she told him that, she just took the candy from her pocket, putting one inside her mouth, trying so hard to avoid how much she feel like strangling him at that time, but he just smiled to her,
“You know that I don’t do acting anymore,” he told her, without any sign of wanting to argue, he felt a little eccentric with how his behavior changed in a sudden flash, she bit her fingers a little bit,she really wants to know what is going on exactly with this guy.She knows that he always have been the happy go luck person, who’s never uptight with anything that he wanted to do, he don’t even care much if you’re late on your night time out,
he never really bothers about anything, but something is surely not right, and usually when a man change tragically three hundred and sixty degree, it always, she closed her eyes for a moment, trying to distract herself fro thinking at that way, but what else can she say if it’s the actual issue anyway?
She took a deep breath,
A woman can make you change, Jun, she whispered in her heart but still was hidden behind a friendly smile she always gave to everyone she knows, she rubs her shoulder for a few times, she looked at him again,
he touched her shoulder gently,
“You know that I don’t do acting anymore?” he told her, when she just nodded her head, remembering the reason why it all become like this in his life.
Back then when he was in early middle school, he did got stubborn with his father andkeep on telling him that he can’t be able to go to their road trip because he have a play that he can’t resign at the last minute, she remembered everything at that time because she was there with him, even though just behind her own shadows, but she saw everything.
Their quarrel lasted the whole evening, but said to them that he’ll be taking his little sister Jumiko back from school later in that evening since he wont be going to his father’s so call army presentation. He wasn’t a big fan in all of those matter because he knows that whatever happen, his heart and his father would never give and take against each other, how can would a both of them obliges their own ego against one another?
He did an amazing job during that Midsummer Night Dream’s musical stage play, somehow he didn’t even won the best actor award for that play. How he was feeling glorious with he had achieved, he was too excited to go back home to tell his father that he can do what he wanted to do, but how can he ever forgets when he reached back home, one of his neighbor approached him to tell him that they were sorry with what had happened to his family.
How he was confused at that time, he just looked at everyone around him, and with Jumiko crying on his shoulder, he was speechless he don’t know what other thing that he can ever possibly do, but just accept the actual fact they his family is no longer there, no longer with him and his little sister anymore.
He closed his eyes for a long time, and how Manami wishes that he could be there for him, but eve she was terrified with what had happened to his family, she said behind, giving him excuses that he couldn’t make it in time.
Manami closed her eyes for awhile, giving him a gentle smile, she patted his shoulder, “Miyuki would be the lead character and they are needing the Romeo,” she told him, with a small giggle, hewiden his eyes a little bit,
“What?” he asked her, when she just nodded her head,
“Yeah, Romeo quits for some reason and now Juliet is in search for her only long lost love,” she rubs her chin several times, she looked at him with a teasing smile across her face,
“And you don’t want to try?” she asked him again,
**
He opened his eyes wider,
“And I said I’ll be back around six to pick her up!” he felt his heart had a sudden shock, when he rushed towards the mirror and looked at his own face.
He ran his fingers through his hair, trying to fixed a terrible messed he feel like punching himself at that time, how could he ever forget to do things that he had been doing for almost years! How could he would even forget to pick her up. The most easiest thing ever, he closed his eyes for a moment,
Keiko, he said, remembering what she had given him before he sent her back home, he got to make a note in mind that not to accept anything from someone you called an ex lover.
He took off his shirt that he wore inside out, putting it on properly, he took the key on the table close to him and ran outside his room when he accidently ran against his sister, she just looked at him,
“And where are you going?” she asked him, when he pushed her aside,
“I forgot to pick her up!” he told his little sister as he rush towards the front door, he opens it up, unlocks his car even though it was still far enough for him to reach it, he get inside the car, started the engine and drove away as fast as he could
Jumiko looked from inside the house, and mumbled alone,
“And that’s why sometimes they can be really forgetful,” she said, drinking th hot chocolate in thshe was holding in her hand and walked away from the living room
**
She fell silent once again, when she felt a sudden gust of wind blowing past by her in a locked room, without any window that was opened, she felt her heart stopped beating for a few while, but somehow was pounding only God knows how.
She had a gulp, feeling the eerie sense began to linger down her throat, moving slow down her neck, chilling down her spine, she opened her eyes wide in a very dark cold hall way, she felt like she wanted to run away, but her fee doesn’t even manage to move even a single muscle, he only thing she was able to do was only stand still, be as stiff as a tower, she tries to hold herself together, thinking of someone who would come and have her, that somehow, she portrays a man whom with a splendor might of mighty warrior, but who would be there with her apart from her own pitiful fright that was yearning for aid that she knows she couldn’t possibly get,
she took a deep breath, as she slowly moved her one side of her foot in an opposite direction, how she felt her weight doubled her regular self, somehow tormented her heart to even move faster, she closed her eyes,
You're on your own, Yuki, she kept on repeating the same thing over and over again, she felt the rough wind blew passed by her one more time. She looked to the side, trying to regained her strong courage, grasping her fist tighter, she felt herself biting her lips harder, blood flows from the scar she had made to herself slightly, she felt tears began to hide behind her eyes, she asked,
"What do you want from me?" but somehow her voice wasn't even heard from a distance second, but she felt someone holding her close from behind her back, she felt his breath against her bare cold neck, she tries so hard to break free from his grip, but how was that possible to do. His strength was surely double than hers, she strugled herself to break loose from his grasp,
"Let me go!!" she screamed, but still nothing was heard, she used all of the force she got in herself to pushed away what was holding her close, she turnd around and manage to escape from the tormented sentiment that she was feeling, she ran as fast as she could possibly go though the darkest hall way, suddenly she recalled back everything that happened to her today.
She closed her eyes, feeling her tears slowly lingers down her soft cheek, she remembered his beautiful gaze how he looked at her previously,
“Sho,” she whispered his name softly,
“Yuki,” he called for her in the previous time, she looked at him, wondering wh would he even care to talk to her, her heard shrinked in an instant time, she looked at him, trying to say something but eventually, he didn’t even hear her answer him in reply.
She coughed for a few times, giving him a friendly smile, “I’m sorry,” she told him, trying to cover up her shame, she took a deep breath before exchanging her gaze towards his face, she smiled to him again, “Sudden cough,” she said, he gave her a small laughter, and smiled to her.
Somehow, there, their eyes met one another,
Why am I feeling like this? she questioned herself thousands of times, but she only manage to give him a smile.
Anyway how she tried her hard not to think about him being there in front of her eyes, how his body odor that was astoundingly mesmorizing almost everyone who were there, she felt him touching the tip of her finger abruptly, he smiled to her,
“So, Yuki,” he called for her again, when shenodded her head fr a few times, “Yeah?” she replied him at last, he released his fingers that was holding her, he took a deep breath, as he was trying to figure out what was going through her heart, the only emotion he felt of her was just puzzled and full of question.
He touched his fingers against his fair, yet just too soft perhaps bare neck, even though it was only for a while but why does she felt like it was a very long time? Why does it felt like each second splits to two more half, anything that could happen within a minute lastest for too long in her own time, her eyes widen without her noticing anything, he rubs his hand on his shoulder, revealsing hs bare collar bone, she had a short gulp,
“What is it, Sho?” she asked him, trying to wake up from her desperately dreadful dream, she tries to make a conversation with him, he looked at her, how she wondered when will it be the end of nerve wrecking moment every time she was there with him?
Her sudden lack of enthusiasm somehow surprised herself, though how she know she was never like that. Never was in this kind of situation, is it true with what they said anyway? When time comes, you’d feel like this without any do or say?
He roamed around her eyes that was flicking against the light in front of her beautiful sight, he looked to the side just in case he was a little impolite to look at her for too long time, or perhaps making her heart at its not so pleasurable situation, he wouldn’t want her to feel unpleasant with him being there next to her, he rubs his jaw with his point finger for a second,
“Want to catch a ride home?” he finally asked her with a smile across his lips, but somehow gotten her a little edgy, she looked to the side, trying to give him a smile, she felt her esophagus shrunken instantaneously, it took her a little while to try gasping some air to breathe, she closed her eyes for bit,
Is he asking me out or something? Her thought popped out instantly, but she manages to shakes her head, refusing his offer, she looked at him at the end, “Maybe not,” she told him.
“I got some other things to do after class,” she replied him, as he nodded his head understanding what she just said to him, “Well, I guess, I’ll see you tomorrow?” he told her, when she nodded her head in replies,
“That wouldn’t be a bad idea,” she manage to reply him again. Even though how ridiculous she sounded like, she was satisfied with her standing there alone, to face the guy that kept on being there in her dreams. She took a deep breath, “I’ll see you tomorrow?” she said, offering a handshake to him, as he accept it,
“You take care,” he replies, as she felt him grasping her palm against his gentle skin, she nodded again,
Why did I offer him a handshake?! That’s not even gentle for a woman to do things like that!! But it would be strange if I suddenly…
her thought paused for a moment as she looked at him turning around, picking up his bag from the chair next to him, he sling it on his shoulder.
She blinks her eyes for a few times without him even notice. She felt her breath changed at that time, she looked at the sweats that was rolling down slightly behind his neck, she gently bit her finger as her mind started to doze off to some other dimension,
Sunohara Sho,
she whispers in her heart,
“Miyuki?”
She heard someone calling for her,
“Yeah?”
“I’ll see you tomorrow,”
“Okay,” she replied without even know what was going on, he smiled to her as he walked passed by her and left the room.
She looked at herself in the makeup mirror in front of her eyes,
What the hell just happened?
she asked herself.
She wiped the tears that was falling down from her eyes,
“I’ve should have said yes,” she told herself, thinking about his offer to send her back home>
**
Inside the car, the time was already approaching twenty minutes till nine at night, even though the weather outside wasn't as warm like it usually was, Jun felt sweats started to lingers down behind his back. How his heart wasn't at it's peaceful second, he rubs his eyes a couple of times, trying to prevent him to be too distressed with what was going on, though how he knows it's impossible for him to even be thinking straight enough at that time, he closed his eyes for a second and took a deep breath in,
"I'm really sorry, Yuki," he whispered himself, because he was the one who made a promise to her never to bailed her out for whatever might happen in this world, he would always be there for her. Even though it was his first, or maybe second time he didn't manage to picked her up because he fell asleep, but the guilt he felt deep in his soul began to piled up as each second passed by the time.
Suddenly, he heard a loud honk from front, as he spontaniously opened his eyes, the glare from the bright light in front of him, somehow stunned him for a few times,turning his steering toward the left side, avoiding a large truck that was coming straight in front of his eyes,
he took the deepest sigh of relief. He couldn't believe that he was still there, he couldn't believe that he was still alive.
"My goodness, Jun," he whimpered to himself, slowly as he tries to calm himself down from that frightening he faced a while ago, he leaned back on the driver's seat, with both of his palm touching his sweating face, somehow he realize something that he didn't even see it was visible in his heart,
How can I live without you, he whispers alone, but pausing his thought for a moment, he looked to the side at the road that isn't as busy it was during the day time, he leaned close down the steering in front of him,
Who would have take care of her if i ever, he thought again, thinking about the accident that could , but did not happened, he moved his hands toward the car key at the sid, turning off the engine for a little while, he closed his eyes for a few moment, trying to release his stress, he felt the phone in his pocket started to vibrates.
He took his mobile phone out, looking at the caller's name, winced before he pressed the picked up call button on the screen,
"Hello?" he answered,
**
She paused for a moment, gasping some air to breathe, but she heard the foot steps are getting much closer to her, she tries her best to continue her escape,
"Don't kill me!" she shrieked. But the shadows she saw on the ground doesn't seemed to care about anything at all, he gets much closer to her each second passed by, but suddenly, she ran againts a person, something in front of her by accident.
Her heart stopped at that second. She opened her eyes wide, but the dark hall way was giving her a puzzle expression of who might be in front of her eyes. She tries to get a glips of him, but how can she ever do.
She gripped her fist tighter, feeling so down and despair, maybe she;s not prepared for anything at all, but if this is it, what other thing can she possibly do, she took a last breath in, she was ready to face anything that will happen there.
Everything went silent around her as she felt the person in front of her hold one side of her arm, "Yuki," she heard him calling for his name, she slowly moves her head up, trying to recognize his voice, it seemed like she had heard it somewhere, but how could it even be that person, but she couldn't recall anyone.
Who is this person, she wondered,
She closed her eyes tighter, "Who is this?" she managed to asked him, she felt his pulse beats lightly, with his warmth calms her down, she really wants to know who was the person holding her close in his arms, she felt herself wrapping her arms around him slightly in return,
"Who are you?" she asked him again, somehow felt save being there with him, she felt his breath breathing close to her ear,
"It's me, Sho," he replied her.
"Sho?"
"Yes, I'm Sho,"
How her heart was at it's tense relief when she knows the person that was holding her was him, "Sho," she whispered his name, as she hold him closer in her arms,
"Yuki," he called for her name again, wrapping both of his arms around her, he felt her tears still dropping down from her eyes, he let out a sigh of relief that she was still alright, "What's the matter, Yuki," he said to her, she just shakes her head with her face buried on his shoulder, he caress her hair lightly, she nodded his head with a small smile across his face,
"I'll take you back home first," he told her, leading her the way out from that place, he felt the anger started to boiled up in his heart,
What the hell are you trying to do, Masaki, he thought on his own, as he walked toward the exit of the building.
**
He hard the hardest laughter,
"You're so stupid," he said, putting the bottle of vodka down on the table, wearing only his black short, he ran his finger through his hair,
"I never thought you'd be this stupid," he said, with a smile across his face, when he felt someone holding him close behind his back, as he looked to his side,
"Honey," he heard her whispered his name, when he touched the side of her cheek, giving her a kiss on her lips, he smiled to her,
"Yes, Naomi, baby," he called for her name, looking at her fully ready for her work, he gently caress her hair, leaning close as he breathe nearby her ear, she pulled him closer to her body, knowing how much in her heart she wants him, she felt him kissing her cheek a little,
"Do you have to ho?" he asked her. She nodded her head, "I got work, baby," she told him, when he looked at her deeply into her eyes, he felt his heart started to roared how much he wanted her at that time, his breathing wasn't certain with whatever was going to happen, he licked her neck, sensing her odour, before he let her off him, "I'll be back early," she told him, giving him the long kiss that he always been craving for, she opens the front door of her house,
"I'll see you later tonight," she told him, when he made a puppy eyes to her,
"Promise?"
"Promise,"
He looked at her leaving the house after their last kiss, he turned around as she drove her car away from there, he smiled a little,
"Why are you so stupid, Sho," he said, taking the vodka bottle again, walking toward her room, as he gets inside.
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